New Year

Happy new year.

The year is already over. A lot has happened this year and it went by quickly.

This year's goals are...

-Just have fun wherever I am

-Be Settled with something

-Continue to seek God even more and my my fire burn brighter for God

-Find a stillness in my heart again

-And Not let my heart be so hard and let it grow soft again

It is a new year. But everyday is a new day. Live it for yourself so you can look back and know that is how you would live it.

Yes, parts of the past year I wish went different. But I try to look at it as things I had to go through to be the man God wants me to be.

Trust is importaint, my challenge is for you to trust God even more than last year with me. And may you be blessed for it. God isn't always the easy road but nothing is more fulfilling or greater than that.

-As always and now in year 2011,

The Beast

What is up? ...Sky.....Space, maybe birds.

-Really what is up?

Nothing new really.

Helping my dad work on the kitten. We are going at it full force. I've just relaxed cause work isn't coming my way much around this time of year. I'm content with my work, although something more steady would be nice. I'm still waiting for God to lead me on the path he wants me to take but it has been awhile sense I've heard his whisper leading me alone the way.

I have a very tender heart, I'm told. Lately it has grown to be hard. And my fire for God has lost wind from a forest fire to a candle. It is more easy to let my devotions slip me by. I feel like an odd puzzle peice and can't see where I fit. But I'm who I am for a reason.

I just need to let go of stuff and grow in God, Love others and wait with my ears like Samuel's, ready for my marching orders form the big man. I'm having problems with all three of these but these are my latest instructions.

I'm truly blessed for my all of my true friends and the greatest of these friends are my family.

/Faith in the Truth

/Hope in the Promisse

/Love with God's Love

-Beast

Beep-Beeby-dee-dee (repeat)

Ok here is something fun I got for christmas. I never lost my keys but my parents got me this cool key thing that beeps every noise. So I tested it right away and it works and never stops. lol. I hid it in my truck but as I'm driving along it is always going off so I crank up the radio even louder and now I may start hearing it when it isn't even there.

So is that is not good but here is the main point of this story. When you get some cool key thing... keep the safe off slip in it.

But if you already pulled it. Have fun and put it in a high place where your mom can't reach and she'll walk into the room and Beep!

Sorry this is just a little dumb thing.

-Beast Trying to stop the Beep.

Ps. No I haven't resorted to violent measures...... yet.

The Night Cursade

Earlier this week I made the choice of going out to my bench for some time alone... in the dark. I looked to the sky and the clouds were blocking the stars. I was reminded God is there like the stars hidden. But as I worked my way out there further into the pasture. I got to the kansas hill top, aka. The rised landscape. Turned off my flashlight and stared at the blank sky full of stars. I prayed for a bit without answer but my heart was settled about some things.

When I finished praying my eyes adjusted to the dark and I could see fine without my flashlight, so i left it in my pocket and carried on. Before I got to the bench I made up in my mind I was going to carry the main log home. And that is what I did.

It was fun crossing the little creeks with the log on my shoulders in the dark. lol. I felt like a beast again. But I got almost home and mom called me about watching a movie so I got home and put it by the garage door, trying to think of something I could use it for.

Idk. I just wanted to post this cause it was an adventure. lol.

-Beast

Whisper.

I've been reading The power of a Whisper by Bill Hybels.

I'm not too far through it but I just wanted to type up some encouragement cause I can't sleep again. And this seemed like a wonderful idea.

This book Explains personal testimony of Bill's and the first major thing I hold tight too from the first Chapter was when Bill was a teenager, he was offered a free dinner with a church elder and he asked him. "What are you going to do with your one and only life?" and eventually changed him with this. "Put your whole life in God's hands and trust him fully-tp lead your life- every area- until the point he proves himself unworthy. At that Moment you can bail. But until then give God control."

This really has stuck with me sense I read it. I took it as my own Challenge. Continued through the book he tells of his whispers form God and I recall times in my life when God has spoken or nugged me one way or another.

The first time was when I think I was fifteen or younger and I was on fire for a God I barely knew worshiping with my EP3 player and sitting on our back fence row. For some reason I looked up and saw the stars for their true beauty. I turned off the MP3 and just got lost in the wonder of the night sky and God showed me his love and it was overwelming. And it changed me forever.

There have been many times I ask God very serious questions. One time he gave me a dream that I didn't reliese it was him till three months later. But it was an dreamed that I remembered and I useally don't remember so I wrote it down in my journal. When i was reading through it in dispair, I saw that and smiled and looked to heaven. For he did answer my question. I just didn't like the answer so I didn't bother with it.

When I went to Camp for all the highschool years and I expected God to give me is Gameplan for my life and I would follow it. Well no gameplan book for the frist three years and this is where all the spirtual stuff happened was at youth Camp so this was the last year. God has told me little things and people praying for me have told me things. But I could be day dreaming it or maybe even they could. But there was always a clear message. First it was always about Love and Show my Love, going back to the fence. Second was Wait....

I stink at waiting...

But God was clear. So I waited till the last year of camp. I made it this was the time God was finally going to give me the playbook! And maybe ask witch 0ne I'd most enjoy going with. But the morning of the last day.... Nothing. God was all through the Camp. But I didn't get the playbook and special talk with God as my Coach, and what he wanted from his eager little servant.

The last morning I felt I need to write something down so I took my pen that was with my Bible and asked my friends if they had scrach paper that I could use. Well no one had anything and this pull in my heart got stronger. So i opened my bible and under Church Notes I started writing and I keep writing till it was done. It was a message from God to me. Saying.

-It is not for you to know when things will come and pass. I know what will come and pass. What you are to do is to trust that I will be with you. You will overcome the challenges. What will come, will come. What will pass, will pass. I am your God and I ask you to love and trust.

I staffed the following week and I still wanted the gameplan. A simple reply was "Wait." I still bug him to this day about giving me my orders. While I wait I try to grow more spritually but I get sidetracked sometimes. Every often to be honest.

Another question I asked God and right away, I felt peace inside of me. I was desprite for the answer. So I felt it was from God and Joy came over me and I felt his control over the situation. Again, it didn't work out the way I believed my answer said it would. I felt God's Control over that that wasn't a Yes from God. Just that he was in control. For a while this really bothered me. But I just have to see this a hard time in my life that I must go through to become the man God wants me to be. I am so blessed with my strong loving Godly Family. I just need to keep my nose in his word and have "Samuels Ears" as The Power of a Whisper quotes.

Life is hilly, hard and it is easy for me to let myself slip. But God is bigger and he always picks me up again if any of us let him he will. Love and Trust, his time and his place.

-The Beast

Stillness.

The Winter has come again, another rotation of the year. I am going through thew hard time, but encouragement is like a beautiful melody around me. And my hope and need of God is there, I'm thankful to every joyful blessing in my life. Above all I'm thankful to my family for their patience and love.

I hope now for a stillness and peace in my heart that I'm having a hard time finding lately. As always I'm the Lords.

-the Beast

What stays

The world rolls around and around and time passes and People grow up and change. Things come and things leave, both bad and good. Make good memories and hold on to then in the hard times. Slip into dispair and lose yourself when you try to fin your own way. But it is just as simple as knowing God is there for the hard and good. And hard times just come to help you grow and if you let them, make you into a better person.

I've been unsure of my place in life or anything, but all I AM is the Lord God Almighty.

The changles seem to be coming harder and faster as I slowly work toward my Indapendice in life. I just need to learn to do what I think i impossible.

Find my stillness inside of me, Hear my call, and step out on the water in faith toward my King, my friend, Jesus with his arms open to me.

Hard times are just a part of life. I hope in these times we can call out to God, be still, hear him and do the impossible. We can only do the impossible with God. His beauty is all around us, just be still.

-Still here as always the Beast.

The Gift

The gift was given and most will never receive it.
The gift was given and many will never understand it.
The gift was given and some my never hear it.

We need to stand out for our gift of Gods love.
We need to share the truth and hope of Jesus' sacrifice.

The Child of the King

Once there was a King who visited one of his poor villages telling them his child was among the children of the village. All the villagers did not know who the prince or princess was, so they treated them all as princes and princesses and loved them dearly. They also feared the wrath of the king if his child was not well treated so they built schools and hospitals for the children.
Many years passed and not one of the children knew they may have been a prince or princess. But they did well in life. They became hard workers in the growing town. They were married and had children of there own, because they were loved by their parents. Not just because one of them was a child of the King.
Finally the King returned to the town. And a grandmother of one of the children on her deathbed asked the King. "My grand-daughter is the princess, isn't she?"
The King replied. "They are all my Children."


This was a very cool story I heard and wanted to share it with you.
I think when I first heard this story that it was story of God's love for the all the Children.
-The Beast

Job's Dedication

How much easier is it to say. "I am yours, God." when everything is going great. Then when everything is going hard I mutter. "I am still yours, God." I feel like when trouble comes, and it does, how often it brakes me down. When I should use it to lift me up and grow in relationship and learn to trust him for all things.

Just something small to thing about.

-When the storm comes, that is when God shows his Power, Just trust in him. Though It is not always easy, just Trust.

The Beast

Though we can't see they are there

It has been cloudy all winter and I miss seeing the stars in the sky. It has always been to me one of the many signs of God's great love and power. To paint the sky in a way that is still makes me speachless.
I look out my window and see the cloudy sky and think the stars are there just as God is there. Although my eyes can't see them they are there. Just the same when I can't see God always when the world clouds my sky he is there.

Through hardship, my faith is tested but my God is always there. Even when I can't See him.

-Yours Always the Beast