Live my life

Yes Saturday I get married. Wow... I've been so busy. Alot has changed, I've worked hard to get the house ready and I've seen all I've done get wrapped up. It has been a hard time for my bride to be as her mother makes ready to go home to Heaven. I believe it is God's will that she see her baby girl get married first then when we are ready she can go home in the comfurt of her Saviors arms. My bride to be and her oldest sister sang Blessings by Laura Story.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CSVqHcdhXQ

It brought tears to my ears. It was beautiful hearing it from them.

My bride to be had the computer for a while so I guess I'm sorry for the delay on posting. I've all the way moved in and my wife to be has brought everything she doesn't need here as well. The big day is very close although I am completely unaware of it. It always seems so far out there. Work is going to be crazy and I pray that I am addiquite to bring God some glory in what I do, even though I'm a trianie machinic for 9 months now. Lately my pastor has been preaching on Acts, I wanted to share the story of Barnabas (the son of encouragement). After God meet Saul on the way to find and kill the followers of Jesus and Saul became Paul. It was Barnabas who took him to the Petter and the others who where hidding from him. And that unwraveled the events of Paul in the wonderful story of the book of Acts.

Here is an encouraging powerful video. Have an aittude of love that comes from God. -Beast out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-2dKOfbC9c

Life as it comes. God's Blessings countdown to the Wedding

God has really blessed me lately. I surrendered my pride and God gave me contemptment in my life a few weeks ago. That helped with alot with some stress, work, wedding, bugeting and family health and everything this is doing to my wife-to-be. (Only need to call her that for 34 days.)  God is very trustworthly than all my plans I can ever make alone. Plans with God are ok and Good. lol.

Blessings are everywhere and hard to count. Charlene and I are taking Dave Ramsey class (her church is paying for it) :) I grew up learning to be money smart so this easy for me.

Blessings more than I can say..,.. the cheap rent at our house, that we got help painting, a bed at the cost of half the tag price (thanks to Dave Ramsey), the Weather and I haven't had the computer or Tv much at all. That has given me time to spend with God to prepare myself for marrage. Honestly, I am very thankful God has  given me the heart to enjoy the time before the wedding. Greatful I can work on the house in my free time and get it ready for us.

Pray for wisdom, a contempt heart and Love others with the hope you enjoy in Christ. -The Beast

Paint with Love

This week I endured four days without a cell phone. This did not however give me closer relationship to God. It just made me frustrated.. alot. But I was able to work and work at the home my bride to be and I are moving into. :)

It is wonderful the difference in a room when you add a warm color to it. Look forward to my bride to see it now. It has been a long week even though work has been slow lately. I'm poking my head around looking for work with benifts in the area I'm moving, south Topeka, west Lawrence area. God has this situation in his faithful trustworthly hands. Many thanks to something he did for my bride to be's family and I. Faith, Hope and Lots of Love. God given and with God's blessings.

-Later Beast over.

My fairy tale

My side of the story.

I was a nineteen year old goofy kid raised sheltered with a love for the Lord. I enjoyed working hard and ministry. One of my ministry’s was Co*Motion, earlier in my life. One of the Helpers was a good friend and she told me I would be a good match for her sister. I worked through a lot of construction contractors until I finally got a roofing job with my friend’s Husband.

There was one job one, one roof, I remember so well. I met my friend’s Father on that roof. We talked while we worked and he got to know eachother. He liked that I had a love for God and didn’t get in trouble so he asked me. “Do you know that I have a daughter about your age?”

“I do know.” I quickly replied with a big grin remembering the Beautiful long dark haired and dark eyed girl who was very musically talented, my friend’s youngest sister, my bride to be. I remember his face as he was trying to study me. I just kept smiling and got back to work.

Not too long not after, my friend called my boss her husbin and told him to send me to their house for supplies. I know this because my boss asked, “Why do I need to send him?” Followed by a chuckle to her reply. I knew something was up and I knew that my bride to be might be there. When I got there, I jumped out of my truck and I saw my bride to be working on setting up tables for the City Wide Garage Sale (just as my friend had asked her sister). The Supplies (I can’t remember for the life of me what I got) where right behind her. I walked with butterflies up and she noticed me and we caught each others eyes. I said "Hey," and life came to her face as her checks blushed and I heard her say hi. I thought she was beautiful before the smile. I had a crush on her, but sadly, it was a work day and but for the rest of the day I had a smile on my face. I disided that I would face the crowds, I try avoid, the next day to find her at the City Wide Garage Sale.

I went to town to find her. She wasn’t at my friend’s the three times I stopped to ask if she was there. I went everywhere and bought things I didn’t need while I was looking for her. By the end of my day, I just texted my friend if she could give my future birde my number. She did that for me.

My bride to be and I began to text and call each other alot. And learn about each other and I thought she was wonderful. We spent time around each other as work allowed it. She and her family asked if I would help at them with their yearly booksale in Wichita. I went and help there. And there was also the first time I took my bride to be’s hand in mine. I then tried to see if she was looking for commitment or if I could scare her off and told her I liked, liked her alot. I didn’t scare her off but I felt we were in the friend zone and I was disappointed. Then again, I thought how wonderful of a person and a good friend she was to me and I told God and myself that was ok.

The day before the tornado that hit Joplin in 2011, it hit the town of Reading, my bride to be’s home. While out on a collage bible study group with my bride to be's next oldest sister with some collage friends. Her father told me to take care of his little Girl and burden in my heart to do so, became my life’s commitment. After the storm blew threw we got word that a pair of Torando tore up her hometown, Reading and her family was safe. I asked her if I could give her a hug and that was when I knew I loved her.

I went up on the next day Sunday and helped with the clean up with my sister, came also. I’ll always remember and be thankful that she was there. I worked with my bride to be’s Dad as much as I worked with my boss for the next few months it seemed. That week I asked her dad. “Could I ask your daughter out?” (Yes her father has counciled me on how you need to communicate to a possible future Father-in-Law.) He replied. “To church?” and then after a moment of confusion on my part he replied “Yes you may.”

My bride to be was playing the piano when I walked up to her and asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend.

We then went on group dates and spent more time with both our families. She was a lot like me but alot more beautiful and a very strong will. She was kind of nerd like me, the outdoors, the motion of swinging or running helps her think, she loves music (Worship), she is a party girl, she wishes to purse counseling, very caring in wanting to comfort people, she loves just to be held with no talking, she is very responsible, looks forward to be a loving mother, marring a Godly man and living her life for God. And she is women and I am a man so I need to communicate better through my tone and she needs to be more literal. Lol.

I got to go with her family to texas , without her… But her father, mother and youngest brother. It was a vacation for the first three days. The rest of the trip was 16 hour night shifts on remodeling payless stores. The remaining 6 hours of each day was supply runs and time to eat and about  4 hours of sleep. No, her youngest brother and his mother went home before this started. It lasted for ten days, and I went from calling my future father-in-law Mr. father of my bride to be's (last name) to yelling at him in delusional tiredness (Yes I made up that word) enough that every thought we were family. I feel we’ve family sense. I wanted to ask his Blessing to Marry his Daughter (Name) who loved my delusional voicemails she’d hear on her phone when she woke up every day. But I ended up just telling him and affirming my intentions to marry her. I still have one of her voicemail’s on my phone of that day she first told me I love you more that once but in rows and I love to hear her say that. I know it is over kill mushy stuff, but I love hearing her say that to me. I’ll keep the memories of this trip with me forever.

The Blessings and Proposal

Well I wanted to do things right or try over doing it with people.  I’ve always been like that, I’ve had her younger brothers blessings and encouragement to get married before anyone else. Lol. I asked her father who I’ve tried to ask this for a long time now. And he tried to help me ask and council me how the right way to do it. And this is how you do it. –You walk up to her father and tell him. “Sir, I love your daughter and I know she loves me. It would be my greatest joy if you would let us get married with your blessings.” (I’m sorry I forgot exactly what to say but I tried to recreate it. Maybe you add an extra sir on the end.. I’m not sure) He then asked who was responsible for your well being? It was God.

My bride to be was aware I was making preparations, as she is with most of my life.. She was showing me rings. And I found a ring and she loved two of them (my artistic one and a more traditional) and naturally as a Guy I went mine. And she has never showed me nothing but love for that ring that I gave her three months after buying it.  But her next oldest sister, was expecting a Proposal and she caught wind that I was going to propose very soon. I got her mom’s blessing to marry her after her next oldest sister, got engaged on Christmas with the condition I had to wait till next year.

I had a hard time for over New Years Eve and for a week surrounding that time, my bride to be went to Mexico on a missions trip. We agreed and were both thinking about not talking during the trip and that is what we did. I did send her a hug one day over a text message. And she needed it and I missed her a lot. When she got back I was very happy to hear about the trip. Then I took her to Hammon Park in Emporia and we were sitting and swinging on a bench swing. It was cold.. we were talking and enjoying being around each other in the quiet still park. Finally I caught her eye and said. “I choose you. Do you choose me?” she seemed excited as confused and said. “Yes.” I said. “Welp, I’m ready to go.” I jumped to my feet. And turned around and got on a knee in front of her and pulled out the ring box as I imagined and imagined I would. I said. “But first I need to ask you a question.” “Will you marry me?” She was in happy shock then she couldn’t stop saying yes. Brings a huge smile to my face thinking about it.

So my bride to be and I let her sister have her moment and all her friends get married first and her family wished for her to turn twenty first so her twentieth birthday is Wensday and our wedding is Saturday. I was thought I was ready to get married in April but I’ll let her family have their wishes. We've grown more and alot more ready for it now.. hopefully. Still need prayer for more than just that.

Unmarried for 60 days..

 Beast out-

20th Birthday! The Millennium Falcon! :D

I am no longer a teenager, I've had my twentieth birthday. It was a normal work day like any other lately. Although, I did have a nice date with my Bride to be. Thanks for that. :) I got the awesomest T-shirt with the blueprints of the Millennium Falcon! :D


I'm not where I'd thought I'd be for sure.. God has a interesting grasp on my life and I'm not sure where he is leading me. But a little over a year ago he told me to prepare myself. I'm guessing thinking back on it it could of been for my wife to be. I've made the commitment to love her as Christ loves the Church.

I pray for God to take my burdens of Finances, Life of Marriage, My future family and how he'll use me to provide for them. God is very worthy of all trust in these things. I don't have to fight alone or with Charlene or any forces of the Earth. Cause my Savior lives in the Heavenly Realms. That is just awesome by the way. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noTeTitX7JQ

This was on the radio on the way home and this song rocks. lol. What truth in it's great Guitar rock'n song!

God has given me the chance to learn more with mechanics, I think he wants me to have some skills as a handy man. (Just pointing out the Easy noted).
God asked me to serve others and I see my journey of life having a lot of doors open soon, with some closing. My Fiancee and I will Serve, Love and Trust God.

I couldn't be happier. Later! :) -Beast out.

April, Song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oyPBtExE4W0

The last days of being a teenager... ... Nineteen then, !BAM! Twenty. lol. I've grown into a man after God. Working Hard for a future I wish was nearer. Life is busy but God is greater. I Always need more of him in my life and He full fills me, not my future wife. I'll give my life to them both and She is such an amazing blessing. All the time, so beautiful with her heart, actions, mind and spirt. She can also dress up to look like a knock out. ;)

God makes us so let him. Love God and others and Trust Him then Yourself

-Have a Great month! The BEAST

Febuary

All I have is Christ (Sovereign Grace)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dc767UXztTI&feature=related

Two weeks ago this song came up in Church service on sunday. It spoke wonders to me with the conviction asking if God was enough. I answered yes. What a spiritual awaking in my heart.

I don't have a Job still and that is very hard on me. I've been praying for God's blessings and work so I'm sure he'll take care of me. I wait on the Lord. I trust in the Lord. God is more than enough.

We've picked a wedding day in about nine months hopefully it will work by then. :) But if I'm going to provide for my wife I pray God will provide me with a Job. I'm trusting he will in his time, If it were mine I'd have it already.

Continue to pour out your blessings. All praise to my King. forever and ever,

A start of something new

I got a temp job at PTMW. It is a simple job and I started two weeks ago. It is a different environment. I'm so thankful to God for answering my prayers for a full time job. :) Hopefully I'll be hired in a few months (with a raise) and work toward moving out on my own.

I need to keep my focus and heart on God. He has blessed me more than my cup can hold I pray it may overflow into every person I interact with.

*There is no worse feeling then knowing you are far from God Because there is no better feeling then being in his presence. :) God never changes his arms are always stretched as wide as the cross that we put Him on and the cross He chose.

-Beast

Do you not know? Have you Not heard?

My girlfriend sends me a bible verse everyday, through text messages or voicemail. My favorite voicemail she left a verse. Isaiah 40:26-31

²⁷ Why do you complain, Jacob?
Why do you say, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded by my God”?
²⁸ Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
²⁹ He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
³¹ but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:26-31

She then prayed for me.. As this week dragged on, I grew more weary. I finally made it weekend, then I got into the car after I got off work and lessened to my saved voicemails. This is one of my saved ones. As I heard it I knew it was what 'I needed to hear then she prayed the prayer I needed'. Then I lessened to it again. :) I put my hope in the Lord and the weight and weary self was taken from me. I rejoiced and I finished my prayer and turned on the radio and this song came on...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kftUFUccg-A

That is a God thing. :)

-Beast out, my hope is always in the Lord

A new heart

For a lot of times in my life I've asked God to take my heart and make it new again. A lot more than I should, I realize.

I let go of what I once held so tightly to. My personal relationship with God. It took me a little bit to realize how far I've gotten. Then I feared it was too late. And I crashed rock bottom, it took a toll on everyone close to me. Then I cried out to God with no reply. For months.

And that was the longest worst time in my life. But I grew so much, I learned the loneliness without God living alive in me. And I felt dead inside.

So many people brought me through that hard time in my life. But I still see God's hand guiding me along. God used that hard fall to grow more than I ever thought I could.

I've been so very busy with life and all that is with it. But when I sent the message saying the battle is won. That is after I heard the still small warm voice that I've missed for so long say. "I love you." I heard God speak to me again. :)

Currently, life has never been better. I still have my difficulties and battles. But God is my center and my solid fortress that I will never ever ever ever ever, leave again.

-The Beast over and out

Faith Hope and Love witch is the greatest