The World and Me

It is the last day of this month and I still feel myself shaping into the man God wants me to be. God has greatly softened my heart again and that is all I want. I've struggled or have been struggling to much in my life about questions I don't know the answer to.

I just need to TRUST in the only one worth trusting in.

And this is such a small world with so many people.

And so many of us are going through the same thing.

And Love is the greatest. (1st Corinthians 13:13)

Love is the greatest thing I felt in my life.

And to have that love returned is even greater.

God loves us and I hope we can all feel what I felt on the fence many years ago when God showed himself to me and told me to love others.

True I harden my heart a lot over the years. But I aways pray that my heart stays soft. I smile remembering how God has just given me a new one, maybe more times than he should of. But there is no end to His Love.

Just Trust.

-the Beast

Back

Home, SWEET HOME!

35,000 miles and finally where we started. It was all around great trip. Besides the long road days. X)

But home is home. Now I've been in both the Atlantic and the Pacific. Seen alot. I loved it out there with the fresh sea air and the tropical surroundings. Get to visit people that really matter to me. I'll miss them maybe a little more now, but I got great memories.

-Beast over.

Other side of America

I Enjoyed the awesome grand canyon and it was difficult not to yell. "I'm King of the world with my arms spread wide over the edge like the foolish fun person I believe myself to be.

Now, I'm in a far away place I see the other side of my gaint home of America.

The Palm trees seem allien but the warm sun is welcoming. Although we are finally getting the same in my homestate. ;)

I enjoyed dinner @ Fishouse and it was very good but I was very tired of travelling. Alot snow that was interesting for this area so I'm cnvensed that the snow and cold weather followed us out of Kansas. It is very nice in Kansas now, to my reports.

I hope all is well with you as well as me

-the beast over

Mountains

Mountains are amazing!

I got to see some today and my reaction was. I want to climb just all of them! One at a time but just climb them all!
-That was my beastly comment.

All is going great with me, enjoying the last flexable time I'll have in awhile. Enjoy spring break people.

-I'll blog when I can. And remember to Trust and Love. Night people, yours the Beast

The Great Crusade

"You are about to embark on the great crusade..." Declared Churchill as the Allied forces prepared to Land in Normandy. Churchill had many of amusing stories about his life and I am very good with getting off track. lol. :D

Anyway I'm blogging this early on my annual friday cause I'm getting ready for an awesome trip to Sanaa Barbara, California! :] (Grunt Grunt) And the home of Psych, So that will be a goal in this trip to find the office of Psych. A great show but I will not get off track as I easily do lately. Ummmmm.... Where was I going with this? Anyway I'll be disconnected for a while over spring break.

Have fun with your Week

-Always the Beast

To Save A Life

Ok, here is one of the movies that is just great!

About a popular high school sport champ his world turned upside down and he realized there was more to life. And he finds it.

Epic Cheesy Moments that'll stay with you for your life! Winner!

-Beast Recommend

So many times in life we get caught up in the everyday things. Our distractions, our past, our future, the mirror of ourselves, comparing our lives to lives of others, sin or entertainment.

God is jealous of us and if we are caught by these things how can we be giving our all to God? If I say God take every part of me and then live with my life invested in something some of these everyday distractions how can we be open to hear the small warming voice of the holy spirt. It is very easy for me to get caught up in all these things I listed.

Lately I've tried to be seeking God more and it has been going great.

I'm working to get my life in order.

And I trust that when the Hardships come that is just my chance to prove my faith is real.

Faith, Hope and Love

-The Beast

Love

Ok, I've been posting a lot lately.

A lot is going on in my life, some of it difficult to deal with. Some of it is just big changes in my life. And some little stuff, like I got my credit card and checking book yesterday. Monday I applied to join the Union. There is painful stuff and challenges that rise up more and more frequently.

But I will just sing louder praise to my God and I will trust him more and more. God has never not been there with me or proved himself unworthy. Unlike myself who has a very up down history.

I've felt the anger and deep sorrow deep within me before on more times than I'd like to admit. But when I let those things in my heart. It slowly makes me very dead on the inside. Outside just as alive as anyone else. Where can love fit into a heart of sorrow and anger. It can't. So I let go of my sorrow and took up love and I'm in pursuit of my Savior with all the Joy I can contain.

Tonight was an amazing night. I read a Psalm I had on my wall from years ago. Psalm 13. And After that I added to it those years ago on that paper I stuck to the wall.

How many times do I lose my footing

How many times do I fall into my sinful ways

How many times do I feel alone in the dark

As many times as you take me back with Your unfailing love. I will always trust in You, My King Eternally.

*Tonight the Stars Shine :)

-Always the Beast

My WAY

Ok, there was an issue I needed solved. My Hair needed a hair cut. So as the Beast I did it myself. I did an very ok job. But I noted I had a mullet cause I couldn't see the back of it. So I used the buzz razor and had at it. That made a terrifying Fail in my little plan witch I turned to my advantage. I showed my mother and sister and we had a good laugh about my cleaned up back head. So my mother being all sweet fixed it up and now I have a shorter than expected hair cut. Awesome! Joni said Mom should of kept it like it was. But no,

The Way or my way witch is the way. hehe. jk.

-(Grunt) The Beast!

Amish Grace

Here is a powerful movie.

You fight with tears through the most of it. But the story of Love is the greatest is just powerful and moving. My favorite line from that movie might be-

*Forgiveness comes from an open heart and it comes without condition or it does not come at all

But this is my Favorite line for sure-

*Faith, when everything is as it you want it to be, is not true faith. It is only when our lives are falling apart that we have the chance to make our faith real.

(5 star)

The challenge is when your life is falling apart. Will my faith be proved true? I hope cause I can't imagine the moment when it falls apart. A great movie and very well put together.

Black Ops Zombies

Ok the man challenge is how long you will last and what better way to do that through Zombies!

:D-Fun!

Alright today I was able to get to level 21 with all perks and the Mustang and Sally and the RPK90 upgraded.. Monkey Bombs and the bowy knife. What finally killed me was getting a nuke and finishing a round without setting the teleporter to be ready. And I was only used the quick revive once in the round I got surrounded.

-I tried to hold the teleportor as long as I could then teleport to the Camera Room and kill a lot of them with Mustang and Sally. Switch back to the starting room and work them down while in a retreat. I never opened the full circle cause I didn't want to have them coming through everywhere as and it would always be "Alamo"plan. Never made it there cause I got them coming in on all sides and died.

I have several strategies I'd like to try with teams of people. Like one would be holding up in the Alley with everyone with upgraded AK47u's so they could buy upgraded ammo when needed. Or in the room with two stair Cases and the MP32 and upgrade that and buy upgraded ammo.

With your secondary as open to your discretion. Personally I love the upgraded pistols. :) that would I believe be help full as a support person that can help the window guard if needed or help the main front. I always try to leave a crawler. And I hope to try these out and if you got any ideas I'd love to try them out.

Axis and Allies

Last Sunday dad got a board game for us to get into and it would be- Axis and Allies -. It is a complicated, world conquest board game. The Rule book is 26 pages and I read it up and we had at it. We are both strategic and the first game we played 3 rounds just to become familiar with the playing of it.

This time around I'm playing as the Axis and my father gets to play as the Allies. Unlike the game before where I had the Allies. In both games I focus on Naval and Air Control of the game board. My dad is a very safe player with every horrible attack I could make against him, he already has covered. I am one to very much be aware of my openings but aggressive in the necessary amount.

Currently I hold control of the Mediterranean and he controls above Britain and the Pacific is in a strong stand off with our two fleets at a stand off. The German Eastern Front is at a stand still with Russia. Africa is going well for Germany. Japan in Asia is expanding. But it will mostly come down to the stand off in Germany's Eastern front and Japan and America's Stand off in the Pacific.

-All in all it is a thumbs up for the Beast

Just life as it comes

22's in the rain have a beautiful echo that fills your ears. It kinda sounds like a sniper in video games but whatever. I've not gone out shooting in a while but it always helps relax me.

*Today and yesterday were the two biggest paper fill out days in my life. "Maybe put together."

But life is going great. I'm flying but getting shot at by flack guns bellow. lol. A stupid note I made about while talking earlier.

I'm exited about a chance to go on a road trip. Getting away from life for a bit would always be a nice change.

I'm clueless what to do in some things.

But God knows and just wants us to trust.

In the cloudy sky or clear. Witch it is cloudy and I want the sun to come in both senses.

Pray in all things

-the Beast

The Challenge!

Ok, here is a fun challenge I've been working on for the last month. Take the most well mannered person you know and try to get them to say something they normally wouldn't say, or even harder what you've never heard them say.

It is the most fun when they have no idea you are doing this cause they may get frustrated with you for playing this little game.

Ok, My mother was my saint who I was trying to get to say things. Well last week she caught wind of my efforts. But I would brake out laughing cause how hard I'd try sometimes. YOU Must get word perfect if you are to attempt. And you can't ask them to say that "Word line". You can make any thing funny.

I've done my best and had a blast every time I remember to try it. Give it a shot.

-The Beast

During worship this morning, I realized something simple with big impact on me.

Last year I was seeking so hard for God's "Plan" or what he wanted with me. I felt I had something to do for God in my life and I wanted to know what was up. Time and Time again he told me to wait. I smile at how many times I didn't understand why. Now looking back at last year, thinking about what has happened between now and then. I think also how much I've honestly grown up.

-"Although" I'm not sure how far I've gotten, only how far I've come.

I'm honestly trying to be more outgoing, get out of my comfort zone and Live my life Daily full out for God. I'm seeking what God wants for me, but I don't think he is going to hand down the playbook.

1. I just need to live daily for him and do the little acts that change the world.

2. Keep self open to help wherever I maybe asked to

3. Seek to know God better and trust him more and more

4. Joyfully Love others as I continue being 3rd

Quick little list for myself

-Always The Beast

Late entry, But no sleep lately

Well I am able to keep with the commitment I made this week and I'm liking that. :)

I lack sleep as I type into this keyboard. Although I broke my retinue not posting last night I was busy with a small army of boys. It was indeed fun.

I work with a good friend of mine that is strives daily to be a servant and we often are there for each other as brothers in Christ. He is fun guy with great stories about his life. I'm glad I get to work with him on stuff.

I'm facing a challenge that I didn't know that I'd face. I'm not sure how to deal with it so I'm stepping back and trying to wait for the right time to address it. I'm also trying to avoid it. I might just be that tired running on very little sleep the past few days.

I don't know how this will turn out. But I'll pray, hope and trust.

I'm so thankful to God for all of my family in Christ.

-Yours The Beast

The Moment

I was telling myself yesterday that there wasn't a moment when you choose to live daily for God, that it was making the choices in the daily retinue to life for God. But I proved myself wrong cause in that moment I started to make the choices to live for God. So when I was trying to close my eyes that night I realized the moment thinking there was no moment, was the moment where I switched gears and stopped just doing enough to get by on the Christian standard. That I would seek with all my heart like I once did. In that moment as I closed my eyes Joy stirred within and I couldn't sleep for another hour but it wasn't happiness the condition. It was the Joy form only God that I haven't felt in a long time. I woke with the same Joy within me and the same plan as living as a Living Sacrifice to my Savior, the Healer, the Conquerer and my God!

-Yours the Beast

My Song of the Month

True Love

by Phil Wickham

on the Cannon Album

"Come close listen yo the story

about a love more faithful than the morning

The father gave his only son just to save us

The earth was Shaking in the Dark

All creation felt the fathers broken heart

tears were filling heavens eyes

the day that True love died, the day that true loved died

When blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn't move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

the day that true love died, the day true love died

Search your heart you know you can't deny it

Come on, lose your life so you can find it

The Father Gave his only son just to save us

The earth was Shaking in the Dark

All creation felt the fathers broken heart

tears were filling heavens eyes

the day that True love died, the day that true loved died

When blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn't move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

the day that true love died, the day true love died

Now, Jesus is alive

Jesus is alive X4

Oh, he is alive

He rose again

When Blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn't move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

The day that true love died, the day true love died

Come close and listen to the story"

Now that always shakes my heart in such a moving and powerful way.

-Shine on, The Beast