A lot is going on in my life, some of it difficult to deal with. Some of it is just big changes in my life. And some little stuff, like I got my credit card and checking book yesterday. Monday I applied to join the Union. There is painful stuff and challenges that rise up more and more frequently.
But I will just sing louder praise to my God and I will trust him more and more. God has never not been there with me or proved himself unworthy. Unlike myself who has a very up down history.
I've felt the anger and deep sorrow deep within me before on more times than I'd like to admit. But when I let those things in my heart. It slowly makes me very dead on the inside. Outside just as alive as anyone else. Where can love fit into a heart of sorrow and anger. It can't. So I let go of my sorrow and took up love and I'm in pursuit of my Savior with all the Joy I can contain.
Tonight was an amazing night. I read a Psalm I had on my wall from years ago. Psalm 13. And After that I added to it those years ago on that paper I stuck to the wall.
How many times do I lose my footing
How many times do I fall into my sinful ways
How many times do I feel alone in the dark
As many times as you take me back with Your unfailing love. I will always trust in You, My King Eternally.
*Tonight the Stars Shine :)
-Always the Beast
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