Live my life

Yes Saturday I get married. Wow... I've been so busy. Alot has changed, I've worked hard to get the house ready and I've seen all I've done get wrapped up. It has been a hard time for my bride to be as her mother makes ready to go home to Heaven. I believe it is God's will that she see her baby girl get married first then when we are ready she can go home in the comfurt of her Saviors arms. My bride to be and her oldest sister sang Blessings by Laura Story.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CSVqHcdhXQ

It brought tears to my ears. It was beautiful hearing it from them.

My bride to be had the computer for a while so I guess I'm sorry for the delay on posting. I've all the way moved in and my wife to be has brought everything she doesn't need here as well. The big day is very close although I am completely unaware of it. It always seems so far out there. Work is going to be crazy and I pray that I am addiquite to bring God some glory in what I do, even though I'm a trianie machinic for 9 months now. Lately my pastor has been preaching on Acts, I wanted to share the story of Barnabas (the son of encouragement). After God meet Saul on the way to find and kill the followers of Jesus and Saul became Paul. It was Barnabas who took him to the Petter and the others who where hidding from him. And that unwraveled the events of Paul in the wonderful story of the book of Acts.

Here is an encouraging powerful video. Have an aittude of love that comes from God. -Beast out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-2dKOfbC9c

Life as it comes. God's Blessings countdown to the Wedding

God has really blessed me lately. I surrendered my pride and God gave me contemptment in my life a few weeks ago. That helped with alot with some stress, work, wedding, bugeting and family health and everything this is doing to my wife-to-be. (Only need to call her that for 34 days.)  God is very trustworthly than all my plans I can ever make alone. Plans with God are ok and Good. lol.

Blessings are everywhere and hard to count. Charlene and I are taking Dave Ramsey class (her church is paying for it) :) I grew up learning to be money smart so this easy for me.

Blessings more than I can say..,.. the cheap rent at our house, that we got help painting, a bed at the cost of half the tag price (thanks to Dave Ramsey), the Weather and I haven't had the computer or Tv much at all. That has given me time to spend with God to prepare myself for marrage. Honestly, I am very thankful God has  given me the heart to enjoy the time before the wedding. Greatful I can work on the house in my free time and get it ready for us.

Pray for wisdom, a contempt heart and Love others with the hope you enjoy in Christ. -The Beast

Paint with Love

This week I endured four days without a cell phone. This did not however give me closer relationship to God. It just made me frustrated.. alot. But I was able to work and work at the home my bride to be and I are moving into. :)

It is wonderful the difference in a room when you add a warm color to it. Look forward to my bride to see it now. It has been a long week even though work has been slow lately. I'm poking my head around looking for work with benifts in the area I'm moving, south Topeka, west Lawrence area. God has this situation in his faithful trustworthly hands. Many thanks to something he did for my bride to be's family and I. Faith, Hope and Lots of Love. God given and with God's blessings.

-Later Beast over.

Song of thy Month, September

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TItyYhfwClM

"God stays the same always"

Song of 'thy' Month is One Thing Remains - Kristian Stanfill

Honestly I heard this on the way home from work and it sounds ten times better with a high bass drum. (A.K.A. my hand beating the wheel with the volume set a little high)

*Oh I'm getting married in Fifty days. ^_^ God is blessed me alot. My "Bride to be" isn't prefect for me, though she is wonderful. She is what I need and God knows that.

-Later Prayers for you and ask some in return. Practice prayer for others draws me closer to God. I know I'll need help as a young husbin. Looking forward to the adventure of my lifetime with the adventures within. Beast out

Proverbs 18:22

He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord.

 

Proverbs 31:10

A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.

My fairy tale

My side of the story.

I was a nineteen year old goofy kid raised sheltered with a love for the Lord. I enjoyed working hard and ministry. One of my ministry’s was Co*Motion, earlier in my life. One of the Helpers was a good friend and she told me I would be a good match for her sister. I worked through a lot of construction contractors until I finally got a roofing job with my friend’s Husband.

There was one job one, one roof, I remember so well. I met my friend’s Father on that roof. We talked while we worked and he got to know eachother. He liked that I had a love for God and didn’t get in trouble so he asked me. “Do you know that I have a daughter about your age?”

“I do know.” I quickly replied with a big grin remembering the Beautiful long dark haired and dark eyed girl who was very musically talented, my friend’s youngest sister, my bride to be. I remember his face as he was trying to study me. I just kept smiling and got back to work.

Not too long not after, my friend called my boss her husbin and told him to send me to their house for supplies. I know this because my boss asked, “Why do I need to send him?” Followed by a chuckle to her reply. I knew something was up and I knew that my bride to be might be there. When I got there, I jumped out of my truck and I saw my bride to be working on setting up tables for the City Wide Garage Sale (just as my friend had asked her sister). The Supplies (I can’t remember for the life of me what I got) where right behind her. I walked with butterflies up and she noticed me and we caught each others eyes. I said "Hey," and life came to her face as her checks blushed and I heard her say hi. I thought she was beautiful before the smile. I had a crush on her, but sadly, it was a work day and but for the rest of the day I had a smile on my face. I disided that I would face the crowds, I try avoid, the next day to find her at the City Wide Garage Sale.

I went to town to find her. She wasn’t at my friend’s the three times I stopped to ask if she was there. I went everywhere and bought things I didn’t need while I was looking for her. By the end of my day, I just texted my friend if she could give my future birde my number. She did that for me.

My bride to be and I began to text and call each other alot. And learn about each other and I thought she was wonderful. We spent time around each other as work allowed it. She and her family asked if I would help at them with their yearly booksale in Wichita. I went and help there. And there was also the first time I took my bride to be’s hand in mine. I then tried to see if she was looking for commitment or if I could scare her off and told her I liked, liked her alot. I didn’t scare her off but I felt we were in the friend zone and I was disappointed. Then again, I thought how wonderful of a person and a good friend she was to me and I told God and myself that was ok.

The day before the tornado that hit Joplin in 2011, it hit the town of Reading, my bride to be’s home. While out on a collage bible study group with my bride to be's next oldest sister with some collage friends. Her father told me to take care of his little Girl and burden in my heart to do so, became my life’s commitment. After the storm blew threw we got word that a pair of Torando tore up her hometown, Reading and her family was safe. I asked her if I could give her a hug and that was when I knew I loved her.

I went up on the next day Sunday and helped with the clean up with my sister, came also. I’ll always remember and be thankful that she was there. I worked with my bride to be’s Dad as much as I worked with my boss for the next few months it seemed. That week I asked her dad. “Could I ask your daughter out?” (Yes her father has counciled me on how you need to communicate to a possible future Father-in-Law.) He replied. “To church?” and then after a moment of confusion on my part he replied “Yes you may.”

My bride to be was playing the piano when I walked up to her and asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend.

We then went on group dates and spent more time with both our families. She was a lot like me but alot more beautiful and a very strong will. She was kind of nerd like me, the outdoors, the motion of swinging or running helps her think, she loves music (Worship), she is a party girl, she wishes to purse counseling, very caring in wanting to comfort people, she loves just to be held with no talking, she is very responsible, looks forward to be a loving mother, marring a Godly man and living her life for God. And she is women and I am a man so I need to communicate better through my tone and she needs to be more literal. Lol.

I got to go with her family to texas , without her… But her father, mother and youngest brother. It was a vacation for the first three days. The rest of the trip was 16 hour night shifts on remodeling payless stores. The remaining 6 hours of each day was supply runs and time to eat and about  4 hours of sleep. No, her youngest brother and his mother went home before this started. It lasted for ten days, and I went from calling my future father-in-law Mr. father of my bride to be's (last name) to yelling at him in delusional tiredness (Yes I made up that word) enough that every thought we were family. I feel we’ve family sense. I wanted to ask his Blessing to Marry his Daughter (Name) who loved my delusional voicemails she’d hear on her phone when she woke up every day. But I ended up just telling him and affirming my intentions to marry her. I still have one of her voicemail’s on my phone of that day she first told me I love you more that once but in rows and I love to hear her say that. I know it is over kill mushy stuff, but I love hearing her say that to me. I’ll keep the memories of this trip with me forever.

The Blessings and Proposal

Well I wanted to do things right or try over doing it with people.  I’ve always been like that, I’ve had her younger brothers blessings and encouragement to get married before anyone else. Lol. I asked her father who I’ve tried to ask this for a long time now. And he tried to help me ask and council me how the right way to do it. And this is how you do it. –You walk up to her father and tell him. “Sir, I love your daughter and I know she loves me. It would be my greatest joy if you would let us get married with your blessings.” (I’m sorry I forgot exactly what to say but I tried to recreate it. Maybe you add an extra sir on the end.. I’m not sure) He then asked who was responsible for your well being? It was God.

My bride to be was aware I was making preparations, as she is with most of my life.. She was showing me rings. And I found a ring and she loved two of them (my artistic one and a more traditional) and naturally as a Guy I went mine. And she has never showed me nothing but love for that ring that I gave her three months after buying it.  But her next oldest sister, was expecting a Proposal and she caught wind that I was going to propose very soon. I got her mom’s blessing to marry her after her next oldest sister, got engaged on Christmas with the condition I had to wait till next year.

I had a hard time for over New Years Eve and for a week surrounding that time, my bride to be went to Mexico on a missions trip. We agreed and were both thinking about not talking during the trip and that is what we did. I did send her a hug one day over a text message. And she needed it and I missed her a lot. When she got back I was very happy to hear about the trip. Then I took her to Hammon Park in Emporia and we were sitting and swinging on a bench swing. It was cold.. we were talking and enjoying being around each other in the quiet still park. Finally I caught her eye and said. “I choose you. Do you choose me?” she seemed excited as confused and said. “Yes.” I said. “Welp, I’m ready to go.” I jumped to my feet. And turned around and got on a knee in front of her and pulled out the ring box as I imagined and imagined I would. I said. “But first I need to ask you a question.” “Will you marry me?” She was in happy shock then she couldn’t stop saying yes. Brings a huge smile to my face thinking about it.

So my bride to be and I let her sister have her moment and all her friends get married first and her family wished for her to turn twenty first so her twentieth birthday is Wensday and our wedding is Saturday. I was thought I was ready to get married in April but I’ll let her family have their wishes. We've grown more and alot more ready for it now.. hopefully. Still need prayer for more than just that.

Unmarried for 60 days..

 Beast out-

Our first Love

Today at my bride to be's church. The pastor preached on his personal testimony of reading Revelation chapter two where the Church of  Ephesus and God held him there.

I felt in my past more so than the present I've done some work for the Kingdom of God. I've been busy trying to please all those around me, struggling with my pride. The weight of all the responiblity and all the voices of people I even look up to, in family and friends telling me. "I'm not ready to get married." "You are not doing enough to ready to make yourself ready for this day." It is hard to find the strength sometimes. That is getting off track though. But where I was going with this was I've made my life too busy and cut out those specail times where I am with my Savoir Christ, alone. Enjoying his presence and worshiping him for all he has done. God has not forsaken me. I have let my spirit on fire dwindle to a candle when I remember the life and joy of seeing God make it into a boom fire. Consuming me like an explosion from within that effects all those around me. I remember God using me Daily just for small things and seeing God work through me to do things I could never see myself doing. Today looking back I can't believe God used me to preach in front of others..

I miss the time when I would go to that quiet fence behind my parents house and would be with God and lission to my true first Love, and hear God speak to me. God never Changes, I just hope I can get myself back to that place, the place where I couldn't get over who God was and it amazed me. several months ago Anthem Lights came out with the song -Can't get over you. I remembered what it was like and that is why I love that song so much!

Ephesus

“To the angel of the church in Ephesus write:

These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands. ² I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. ³ You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.

⁴ Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.

Couldn't finish this in one sitting. my fun, crazy and awesome brother-in-law came and took me to a rope swing that swings threw a gorge into a river. stinking awesome.. Good to get away with him and do some fun crazy and stinking awesome stuff. lol.

-Later, Beast out

Remind me of who I am

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSIVjjY8Ou8&feature=related

We are not meant to hurt each other but lift each other up, it is amazing this past week as I've tried to a just my actions and behavior toward others and I can really see the difference it helps. The stressful events are still there but with God and effort on my part, all things can be overcomed.


-tired, calling it a night. later beast out

Civilizations and Conquers

Civilization V

My best man and several of my friends have got into steam. Steam is a community based store where you by video games and download them over the web.

I have only bought Civilization V. A game in with you build cities and Nations, Technology, be diplomatic and A Lot more!

Mostly in a video game I am the aggressor working to find the weakness in the target I wish to conquer and execute my plan and win the war. The plans work perfectly until I am called a warmonger by all players on the board and I'm in a all front war. But I was technological advanced with artillery and they had riflemen at best. I held them until I had tanks and I Charged into the heart of them. And no one won the war. I also played a game online with my friends. that one we just dominated. I recommend this game with your friends.\ who enjoy strategy.

Minecraft

Minecraft!

A game I might of spent alot of my limited free time on. Lol. I have yet to find Dimonds, finally found a lava lake and have processed to add lava to the top my two glass stone towers. on one I made a room on top of that with a water fall leading deep in ground, to my mine network. Impressed with myself I made a straight shaft with rails and a mine cart that moves supper slow. It leads to a tunnel network 500 likely more blocks in deep full of resources.

My wife to be has never played it but she had a dream about it last night and that cracked me up!

Song of the month

I love it when God shows his faithfulness. We got maybe three minutes of rain and I felt God show me that He has control and that his blessings will pour down. And the reason He has for me being where I am at will be revealed and He will be glorified. :) That was some great encouragement.

Song of the month is Lord of Lords

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4kbpRRRgcQ

-Faith, Hope, Love, Prayer and Surrender to the Lord of Lords is the Greatest way I know to live your life! Faith Endures

        Hope for the Lost in ourselves and the world

                Love Just as Christ Loves US

                        Prayer moves the Spirit

                                  Surrender your time, your possessions, your life and your will completely and

tell me you made the wrong choice? God doesn't always work in the way you wish. I know that first hand, but I also know he will always help us bear our burdens and pains. -Beast out

Why do you get married?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tgl5ReWgn-E

*  ^ look this up in a tap ^ *

Ok,
Why does one get married?

-you don't get married, a couple gets married ;) got ya!

Well what should be the reasons for a couple to get married?

So you can glorify God through your marriage!
             &
So you can unify yourself to your wife and both of you to God

Simple and if you can keep to that and love your partner even when you don't like them (just as God loves you all the time and is unchanging) OR TRY YOUR HARDEST!! you'll do fine and your marriage will last! And keep in an even line with your partner and learn what hurts them and protect them from that.

-Thanks BEAST Out

Sorry life has been busy. God is proved himself very helpful in my life as events and weight in life starts to come down. :)

Getting ready for the wedding, mostly handled. The plans are made in the works of going down. Went to our friends wedding in Springfeild. Was happy for the time off work and the chance to help with the wedding. :)

Use this laptop often, glad for it. Prayer is still really needed, for everything!
-Beast out

SONG OF JULY 2012

David Crowder Band- You Never LET GO..

Life and Praises! THE BIGGEST CHOICE

GOD is Faithful!!!

I know he is taking care and filling my life with so many blessings!

Life is never easy, but he is faithful to be with us through the trails, fails and Victories. God is already conquered so just give 'it' up to him.

*'It' could be alot of things. When you wake in the morning it could be your day, that you'd live it for him. And yes, I fully believe this truely changes your entire attitude for the day.

*It could be the Mountains that are arising before you, (Challenges or Battles that seem impossible to overcome), But faith of a Musturd seed can move mountains. It may not be the way you saw it or wanted to.. But GOD Knows better than us! It is OK!

*It could be not just one event but something much more Importaint, ourselves and our lives. God Loves US. If we give ourselves to him we are his Childern and God cares for his Childern. THIS IS THE BIGGEST CHOICE TO MAKE! jtlyk...

I actually got a laptop with Cash. Thanks D. Ramsey-
No Promisses but I'll try to blog weekly about something random!

With all the love God gives me to give others I hope some of it finds you, Later Beast Out-end

June!

Hello, Life has been so buzy! I'm getting married in a few months or so, but got alot of stuff to do this summer! God is at work and I pray He stays the center.

If you wanna song.. I'd go with

-When stars Burn Down( Philips Creig and Dean
Or
-In Christ Alone(Owl City

Thanks for your Prayers. :) God is so Faithful and Worthy of all I am. I'm not worthy of him but he still loves me. Understanding that brings you to life, the way God intended.

20th Birthday! The Millennium Falcon! :D

I am no longer a teenager, I've had my twentieth birthday. It was a normal work day like any other lately. Although, I did have a nice date with my Bride to be. Thanks for that. :) I got the awesomest T-shirt with the blueprints of the Millennium Falcon! :D


I'm not where I'd thought I'd be for sure.. God has a interesting grasp on my life and I'm not sure where he is leading me. But a little over a year ago he told me to prepare myself. I'm guessing thinking back on it it could of been for my wife to be. I've made the commitment to love her as Christ loves the Church.

I pray for God to take my burdens of Finances, Life of Marriage, My future family and how he'll use me to provide for them. God is very worthy of all trust in these things. I don't have to fight alone or with Charlene or any forces of the Earth. Cause my Savior lives in the Heavenly Realms. That is just awesome by the way. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noTeTitX7JQ

This was on the radio on the way home and this song rocks. lol. What truth in it's great Guitar rock'n song!

God has given me the chance to learn more with mechanics, I think he wants me to have some skills as a handy man. (Just pointing out the Easy noted).
God asked me to serve others and I see my journey of life having a lot of doors open soon, with some closing. My Fiancee and I will Serve, Love and Trust God.

I couldn't be happier. Later! :) -Beast out.

April, Song of the month

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oyPBtExE4W0

The last days of being a teenager... ... Nineteen then, !BAM! Twenty. lol. I've grown into a man after God. Working Hard for a future I wish was nearer. Life is busy but God is greater. I Always need more of him in my life and He full fills me, not my future wife. I'll give my life to them both and She is such an amazing blessing. All the time, so beautiful with her heart, actions, mind and spirt. She can also dress up to look like a knock out. ;)

God makes us so let him. Love God and others and Trust Him then Yourself

-Have a Great month! The BEAST

Blessings

Blessings

God has really challenged me this past year and I've given my heart to God as much as i could and Now. His blessings are flowing out and he proves faithful. I am excited to be married to my future bride and Know that God is in control and if we love him he will love us. I'm not saying sometimes he'll give though love. But he will always prove the way out.
God has blessed me with such an amazing young women of God who loves him the way I do. I think we make a great pair. She has a stead fast heart, is courageous in faith and loving that warms my heart in a way only God does. :) I've been busy but I've had to share all God has done for me. :) I will not love this world or the events in it. But with all my prayers may I love the people in it, that maybe I can overflow God's Love and maybe they can see not the world in me. But Jesus who loves and has saved me but can also save them. Thank you for the Holy Goast that is Alive in us. Thank you Father for showing your love to us.

-Later and love 'not the world' but 'God and Others'!

Song of the Month March 2012 ^_^

Life throughs difficult things at us. I Pray this Song Echos when it comes.

-When the Stars Burn Down (Philips Craig & Dean)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaj7YQZbvcY

Wait upon the Lord, All things are possible. God is always the same God who Bled on the cross and fought the pain and won the Victory for us, so we may have everlasting union with our Savior. If we choose him. He'll stretch us and put us under the fire so we might become a strong metal. Being heated by God and sharped by our friends. Have a Good month and know that all blessings and honor and glory go to the unchanging perfect God.

-Over

The Beast the Mechanic

God Provided a Job. As a Mechanic. :) I love it. God's blessings have poured out and overflowed. Everything is working out. I've been sooo busy lately. But I still make time for my King.

I figure I need to learn Welding, Computer Programing and Computer Engineering and I know a little bit of everything. LOL! Not sure what I am missing..

-All is Well, I trusted when it looked hard but my soul is overjoyed for it seems to be over. Getting married in the Fall and we are going to wait for it. <3

Febuary

All I have is Christ (Sovereign Grace)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dc767UXztTI&feature=related

Two weeks ago this song came up in Church service on sunday. It spoke wonders to me with the conviction asking if God was enough. I answered yes. What a spiritual awaking in my heart.

I don't have a Job still and that is very hard on me. I've been praying for God's blessings and work so I'm sure he'll take care of me. I wait on the Lord. I trust in the Lord. God is more than enough.

We've picked a wedding day in about nine months hopefully it will work by then. :) But if I'm going to provide for my wife I pray God will provide me with a Job. I'm trusting he will in his time, If it were mine I'd have it already.

Continue to pour out your blessings. All praise to my King. forever and ever,

Engaged

Surprised?

I'm a family man. Lol! I Don't date to just go spend time with some girl to have fun. I look for my wife and if what I know about her is a single, true moral standing women with a radical love of God that I love to be around and learn to know better. You bet I'll nervously ask her to be my girlfriend and six or nine months later ask her to marry me. I say six or nine cause I was ready to ask six months in.

She is worth the wait. Any wait. I'm trusting God to hint at wedding date within the next few months.

The Proposal wasn't exactly the way I wanted it. But her answer was more than I could of hoped for. Thanks for that My Bell.

I'd like to be thankful to God that he has blessed me so much to Have her be in my life I told her that God gave me you. And the next time we went for a drive within twenty minutes of saying that. David Barnes' God Gave Me You was on the Radio. That meant a lot to us.

-Waiting on the Lord in Prayer, Love and Service, Yours always First my Lord and, My Bell is 2.10, the rest is 2.11 (lol) I am third- Beast Out____

2012

Made it. :) Happy new year!

Song of the month-

Christ is risen

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2KNvuscKRA

But Christ has Won! what a thing to celebrate.

At the start of last year I didn't know were I'd be at. But I know God's caring hand has been on my life all this time and I've opened my eyes to all of his blessings. I feel spoiled, My Trust and Joy is not in the lack of current work.. It is in my Lord and King of all. And for that I'm blessed beyond with what I can contain. :)

-Tired.. very get with you'll later in the month, -Beast