Our first Love

Today at my bride to be's church. The pastor preached on his personal testimony of reading Revelation chapter two where the Church of  Ephesus and God held him there.

I felt in my past more so than the present I've done some work for the Kingdom of God. I've been busy trying to please all those around me, struggling with my pride. The weight of all the responiblity and all the voices of people I even look up to, in family and friends telling me. "I'm not ready to get married." "You are not doing enough to ready to make yourself ready for this day." It is hard to find the strength sometimes. That is getting off track though. But where I was going with this was I've made my life too busy and cut out those specail times where I am with my Savoir Christ, alone. Enjoying his presence and worshiping him for all he has done. God has not forsaken me. I have let my spirit on fire dwindle to a candle when I remember the life and joy of seeing God make it into a boom fire. Consuming me like an explosion from within that effects all those around me. I remember God using me Daily just for small things and seeing God work through me to do things I could never see myself doing. Today looking back I can't believe God used me to preach in front of others..

I miss the time when I would go to that quiet fence behind my parents house and would be with God and lission to my true first Love, and hear God speak to me. God never Changes, I just hope I can get myself back to that place, the place where I couldn't get over who God was and it amazed me. several months ago Anthem Lights came out with the song -Can't get over you. I remembered what it was like and that is why I love that song so much!

Ephesus

“To the angel of the church in Ephesus write:

These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands. ² I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. ³ You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.

⁴ Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.

Couldn't finish this in one sitting. my fun, crazy and awesome brother-in-law came and took me to a rope swing that swings threw a gorge into a river. stinking awesome.. Good to get away with him and do some fun crazy and stinking awesome stuff. lol.

-Later, Beast out