A new year 2013

So, I haven't posted anything for a long time. Sorry, things are just going very well and I'm keeping very busy. Working overtime at a distribution center that is a little far away usually work 2:30 in the afternoon to 1am the following morning. unless we finish the squedual for the day and the next day is do able. Life at home is where I feel the best at. My wife and I wanted a family and God helped get us started cause she is already expecting. :) Oh, and by the way, save marriage stuff for marriage and I believe and testify that God rewards that! ;)
Life with God is good his blessings are all around me. A book my wife and I just started going through is Perspective. Started yesterday so not far on that front. My wife left early to watch her nieces before she went to work so I had a while to myself yesterday so I wrote a song. Trust me my wife writes better songs but my song did made her smile and she worked on for the cords some. Just saying all is very well.

Sorry about the lack of contact for a while. But I'll let ya go for now. Later Beast Out.

Live my life

Yes Saturday I get married. Wow... I've been so busy. Alot has changed, I've worked hard to get the house ready and I've seen all I've done get wrapped up. It has been a hard time for my bride to be as her mother makes ready to go home to Heaven. I believe it is God's will that she see her baby girl get married first then when we are ready she can go home in the comfurt of her Saviors arms. My bride to be and her oldest sister sang Blessings by Laura Story.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CSVqHcdhXQ

It brought tears to my ears. It was beautiful hearing it from them.

My bride to be had the computer for a while so I guess I'm sorry for the delay on posting. I've all the way moved in and my wife to be has brought everything she doesn't need here as well. The big day is very close although I am completely unaware of it. It always seems so far out there. Work is going to be crazy and I pray that I am addiquite to bring God some glory in what I do, even though I'm a trianie machinic for 9 months now. Lately my pastor has been preaching on Acts, I wanted to share the story of Barnabas (the son of encouragement). After God meet Saul on the way to find and kill the followers of Jesus and Saul became Paul. It was Barnabas who took him to the Petter and the others who where hidding from him. And that unwraveled the events of Paul in the wonderful story of the book of Acts.

Here is an encouraging powerful video. Have an aittude of love that comes from God. -Beast out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-2dKOfbC9c

Life as it comes. God's Blessings countdown to the Wedding

God has really blessed me lately. I surrendered my pride and God gave me contemptment in my life a few weeks ago. That helped with alot with some stress, work, wedding, bugeting and family health and everything this is doing to my wife-to-be. (Only need to call her that for 34 days.)  God is very trustworthly than all my plans I can ever make alone. Plans with God are ok and Good. lol.

Blessings are everywhere and hard to count. Charlene and I are taking Dave Ramsey class (her church is paying for it) :) I grew up learning to be money smart so this easy for me.

Blessings more than I can say..,.. the cheap rent at our house, that we got help painting, a bed at the cost of half the tag price (thanks to Dave Ramsey), the Weather and I haven't had the computer or Tv much at all. That has given me time to spend with God to prepare myself for marrage. Honestly, I am very thankful God has  given me the heart to enjoy the time before the wedding. Greatful I can work on the house in my free time and get it ready for us.

Pray for wisdom, a contempt heart and Love others with the hope you enjoy in Christ. -The Beast

Paint with Love

This week I endured four days without a cell phone. This did not however give me closer relationship to God. It just made me frustrated.. alot. But I was able to work and work at the home my bride to be and I are moving into. :)

It is wonderful the difference in a room when you add a warm color to it. Look forward to my bride to see it now. It has been a long week even though work has been slow lately. I'm poking my head around looking for work with benifts in the area I'm moving, south Topeka, west Lawrence area. God has this situation in his faithful trustworthly hands. Many thanks to something he did for my bride to be's family and I. Faith, Hope and Lots of Love. God given and with God's blessings.

-Later Beast over.

Song of thy Month, September

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TItyYhfwClM

"God stays the same always"

Song of 'thy' Month is One Thing Remains - Kristian Stanfill

Honestly I heard this on the way home from work and it sounds ten times better with a high bass drum. (A.K.A. my hand beating the wheel with the volume set a little high)

*Oh I'm getting married in Fifty days. ^_^ God is blessed me alot. My "Bride to be" isn't prefect for me, though she is wonderful. She is what I need and God knows that.

-Later Prayers for you and ask some in return. Practice prayer for others draws me closer to God. I know I'll need help as a young husbin. Looking forward to the adventure of my lifetime with the adventures within. Beast out

Proverbs 18:22

He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord.

 

Proverbs 31:10

A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.

My fairy tale

My side of the story.

I was a nineteen year old goofy kid raised sheltered with a love for the Lord. I enjoyed working hard and ministry. One of my ministry’s was Co*Motion, earlier in my life. One of the Helpers was a good friend and she told me I would be a good match for her sister. I worked through a lot of construction contractors until I finally got a roofing job with my friend’s Husband.

There was one job one, one roof, I remember so well. I met my friend’s Father on that roof. We talked while we worked and he got to know eachother. He liked that I had a love for God and didn’t get in trouble so he asked me. “Do you know that I have a daughter about your age?”

“I do know.” I quickly replied with a big grin remembering the Beautiful long dark haired and dark eyed girl who was very musically talented, my friend’s youngest sister, my bride to be. I remember his face as he was trying to study me. I just kept smiling and got back to work.

Not too long not after, my friend called my boss her husbin and told him to send me to their house for supplies. I know this because my boss asked, “Why do I need to send him?” Followed by a chuckle to her reply. I knew something was up and I knew that my bride to be might be there. When I got there, I jumped out of my truck and I saw my bride to be working on setting up tables for the City Wide Garage Sale (just as my friend had asked her sister). The Supplies (I can’t remember for the life of me what I got) where right behind her. I walked with butterflies up and she noticed me and we caught each others eyes. I said "Hey," and life came to her face as her checks blushed and I heard her say hi. I thought she was beautiful before the smile. I had a crush on her, but sadly, it was a work day and but for the rest of the day I had a smile on my face. I disided that I would face the crowds, I try avoid, the next day to find her at the City Wide Garage Sale.

I went to town to find her. She wasn’t at my friend’s the three times I stopped to ask if she was there. I went everywhere and bought things I didn’t need while I was looking for her. By the end of my day, I just texted my friend if she could give my future birde my number. She did that for me.

My bride to be and I began to text and call each other alot. And learn about each other and I thought she was wonderful. We spent time around each other as work allowed it. She and her family asked if I would help at them with their yearly booksale in Wichita. I went and help there. And there was also the first time I took my bride to be’s hand in mine. I then tried to see if she was looking for commitment or if I could scare her off and told her I liked, liked her alot. I didn’t scare her off but I felt we were in the friend zone and I was disappointed. Then again, I thought how wonderful of a person and a good friend she was to me and I told God and myself that was ok.

The day before the tornado that hit Joplin in 2011, it hit the town of Reading, my bride to be’s home. While out on a collage bible study group with my bride to be's next oldest sister with some collage friends. Her father told me to take care of his little Girl and burden in my heart to do so, became my life’s commitment. After the storm blew threw we got word that a pair of Torando tore up her hometown, Reading and her family was safe. I asked her if I could give her a hug and that was when I knew I loved her.

I went up on the next day Sunday and helped with the clean up with my sister, came also. I’ll always remember and be thankful that she was there. I worked with my bride to be’s Dad as much as I worked with my boss for the next few months it seemed. That week I asked her dad. “Could I ask your daughter out?” (Yes her father has counciled me on how you need to communicate to a possible future Father-in-Law.) He replied. “To church?” and then after a moment of confusion on my part he replied “Yes you may.”

My bride to be was playing the piano when I walked up to her and asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend.

We then went on group dates and spent more time with both our families. She was a lot like me but alot more beautiful and a very strong will. She was kind of nerd like me, the outdoors, the motion of swinging or running helps her think, she loves music (Worship), she is a party girl, she wishes to purse counseling, very caring in wanting to comfort people, she loves just to be held with no talking, she is very responsible, looks forward to be a loving mother, marring a Godly man and living her life for God. And she is women and I am a man so I need to communicate better through my tone and she needs to be more literal. Lol.

I got to go with her family to texas , without her… But her father, mother and youngest brother. It was a vacation for the first three days. The rest of the trip was 16 hour night shifts on remodeling payless stores. The remaining 6 hours of each day was supply runs and time to eat and about  4 hours of sleep. No, her youngest brother and his mother went home before this started. It lasted for ten days, and I went from calling my future father-in-law Mr. father of my bride to be's (last name) to yelling at him in delusional tiredness (Yes I made up that word) enough that every thought we were family. I feel we’ve family sense. I wanted to ask his Blessing to Marry his Daughter (Name) who loved my delusional voicemails she’d hear on her phone when she woke up every day. But I ended up just telling him and affirming my intentions to marry her. I still have one of her voicemail’s on my phone of that day she first told me I love you more that once but in rows and I love to hear her say that. I know it is over kill mushy stuff, but I love hearing her say that to me. I’ll keep the memories of this trip with me forever.

The Blessings and Proposal

Well I wanted to do things right or try over doing it with people.  I’ve always been like that, I’ve had her younger brothers blessings and encouragement to get married before anyone else. Lol. I asked her father who I’ve tried to ask this for a long time now. And he tried to help me ask and council me how the right way to do it. And this is how you do it. –You walk up to her father and tell him. “Sir, I love your daughter and I know she loves me. It would be my greatest joy if you would let us get married with your blessings.” (I’m sorry I forgot exactly what to say but I tried to recreate it. Maybe you add an extra sir on the end.. I’m not sure) He then asked who was responsible for your well being? It was God.

My bride to be was aware I was making preparations, as she is with most of my life.. She was showing me rings. And I found a ring and she loved two of them (my artistic one and a more traditional) and naturally as a Guy I went mine. And she has never showed me nothing but love for that ring that I gave her three months after buying it.  But her next oldest sister, was expecting a Proposal and she caught wind that I was going to propose very soon. I got her mom’s blessing to marry her after her next oldest sister, got engaged on Christmas with the condition I had to wait till next year.

I had a hard time for over New Years Eve and for a week surrounding that time, my bride to be went to Mexico on a missions trip. We agreed and were both thinking about not talking during the trip and that is what we did. I did send her a hug one day over a text message. And she needed it and I missed her a lot. When she got back I was very happy to hear about the trip. Then I took her to Hammon Park in Emporia and we were sitting and swinging on a bench swing. It was cold.. we were talking and enjoying being around each other in the quiet still park. Finally I caught her eye and said. “I choose you. Do you choose me?” she seemed excited as confused and said. “Yes.” I said. “Welp, I’m ready to go.” I jumped to my feet. And turned around and got on a knee in front of her and pulled out the ring box as I imagined and imagined I would. I said. “But first I need to ask you a question.” “Will you marry me?” She was in happy shock then she couldn’t stop saying yes. Brings a huge smile to my face thinking about it.

So my bride to be and I let her sister have her moment and all her friends get married first and her family wished for her to turn twenty first so her twentieth birthday is Wensday and our wedding is Saturday. I was thought I was ready to get married in April but I’ll let her family have their wishes. We've grown more and alot more ready for it now.. hopefully. Still need prayer for more than just that.

Unmarried for 60 days..

 Beast out-

Our first Love

Today at my bride to be's church. The pastor preached on his personal testimony of reading Revelation chapter two where the Church of  Ephesus and God held him there.

I felt in my past more so than the present I've done some work for the Kingdom of God. I've been busy trying to please all those around me, struggling with my pride. The weight of all the responiblity and all the voices of people I even look up to, in family and friends telling me. "I'm not ready to get married." "You are not doing enough to ready to make yourself ready for this day." It is hard to find the strength sometimes. That is getting off track though. But where I was going with this was I've made my life too busy and cut out those specail times where I am with my Savoir Christ, alone. Enjoying his presence and worshiping him for all he has done. God has not forsaken me. I have let my spirit on fire dwindle to a candle when I remember the life and joy of seeing God make it into a boom fire. Consuming me like an explosion from within that effects all those around me. I remember God using me Daily just for small things and seeing God work through me to do things I could never see myself doing. Today looking back I can't believe God used me to preach in front of others..

I miss the time when I would go to that quiet fence behind my parents house and would be with God and lission to my true first Love, and hear God speak to me. God never Changes, I just hope I can get myself back to that place, the place where I couldn't get over who God was and it amazed me. several months ago Anthem Lights came out with the song -Can't get over you. I remembered what it was like and that is why I love that song so much!

Ephesus

“To the angel of the church in Ephesus write:

These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands. ² I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. ³ You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.

⁴ Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.

Couldn't finish this in one sitting. my fun, crazy and awesome brother-in-law came and took me to a rope swing that swings threw a gorge into a river. stinking awesome.. Good to get away with him and do some fun crazy and stinking awesome stuff. lol.

-Later, Beast out