Perfection

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=umEozabfLTg

Song of the month

I got home from work and open the car door it was a little past midnight and as I opened the door I looked skyward to see the beautiful sky before me. And I was reminded of all the promises and things God has done in my life and it filled my heart to overflow. The Sky was perfect the stars and the beauty.. perfect. How can we understand perfect? But how can we not know it when we find it? God is perfect. We can't understand him but when we truely find him how can we ever let him go? If God shows himself to you, Don't let that go, but run after him. :)

A start of something new

I got a temp job at PTMW. It is a simple job and I started two weeks ago. It is a different environment. I'm so thankful to God for answering my prayers for a full time job. :) Hopefully I'll be hired in a few months (with a raise) and work toward moving out on my own.

I need to keep my focus and heart on God. He has blessed me more than my cup can hold I pray it may overflow into every person I interact with.

*There is no worse feeling then knowing you are far from God Because there is no better feeling then being in his presence. :) God never changes his arms are always stretched as wide as the cross that we put Him on and the cross He chose.

-Beast

Do you not know? Have you Not heard?

My girlfriend sends me a bible verse everyday, through text messages or voicemail. My favorite voicemail she left a verse. Isaiah 40:26-31

²⁷ Why do you complain, Jacob?
Why do you say, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded by my God”?
²⁸ Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
²⁹ He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
³¹ but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:26-31

She then prayed for me.. As this week dragged on, I grew more weary. I finally made it weekend, then I got into the car after I got off work and lessened to my saved voicemails. This is one of my saved ones. As I heard it I knew it was what 'I needed to hear then she prayed the prayer I needed'. Then I lessened to it again. :) I put my hope in the Lord and the weight and weary self was taken from me. I rejoiced and I finished my prayer and turned on the radio and this song came on...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kftUFUccg-A

That is a God thing. :)

-Beast out, my hope is always in the Lord

Song of the month November

Let Us Turn Our Eyes to Jesus,

-The Valley

When you reach the top of one mountain in your life you can see the other mountain that is higher and where you belong. You got to first Climb down to the Valley to start the Climb again. Life brings Up times and Down times, Just always remember to climb and being in the Down times isn't a bad thing, it may just mean you are fighting for something greater.

-The Beast

I've Climbed and fallen on the up and down road of life. Finally, I'm working toward the Mountain I'll Climb and fight for as long as God wants me there. God has given me so much, Just Fix your eyes on Jesus.

*If my Joy could carry me, I'd be flying. 11-1-11

Three songs for three different people. may one of them touch your heart like all three have touched mine

You Hands (God's Control)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlL8LayF0uw

I Need You (Our Need for him (hear the words)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxiCVQ9fzZI&feature=related

Can't get over you (Worship)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rahcEJ8nRrI

ENJOY! :D RUN RUN RUN AFTER JESUS!

This last song is personally my favorite of the list.

-Always Yours Lord. :D Beast Out-

Strong Tower-

Kutless

This is one of my favorite worship albums. I found it at wal-mart and kept it in my cd player sense. :D

I'm working hard at my job and got a good feel for it, though I'd like to advance myself more. We'll see but my wants and dreams aren't always what I'm going to get right away. But all in God's timing who, I'm as always trusting (Sense I put my trust in him anyway). He hasn't let me down, though there once was hard times but sense then he has showed me how much he is really ALWAYS THERE! I Always know that my escape to his strong tower is as easy as it is to just utter a prayer.

-Beast (sorry to be late but keeping busy) TTYL!

The World Fades

In the moments I surrender, the world fads away. My heart is never more at peace with God in the middle of my life.

I started a Job at Simple Simons Pizza, it was great to see God's little blessings through the day into the evening. Even when I got out of the Car to see the Sky bright and beautiful. He is always there in your life and always working in and threw it. When you don't notice Him, it is because He just wants you to look harder. ;) Trust!!! He will never let you down

God Has Given me more blessings than I can contain. May the World fade and let my eyes be on You. My Redeemer, Friend, Father, Savoir, King of all, Jesus.

Every Knee will bow. And I'll do it with Joy now, with complete faith and trust! :)

This Blog is more for me then you. -Ta! ^_^ Beast out

Texas Trip

I've been Gone from Home for the first part of the month cause I went to Texas. It was a time to grow in my life. By chance I worked with Master Commission Guys from Crossroads Fellowship and it was great to just talk with them.

I'm in a serious relationship and this trip was a great time to get to know her parents and let them get to know me. I'm not perfect but they got to like me. ^-^ Working nights I'm still tired from but It was an interesting experience. Spending two weeks in a city also really make a country boy really miss the country. lol. I'm happy to of gone.

Home isn't in the middle of nowhere Kansas anymore.. or it doesn't feel like it, the way it once did. Home is where I am and where my God takes me.

Lamentations 3:21-23

²¹ Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:

²² Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
²³ They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.

Song of the Month September

Brandon Heath- Your Love

The ONLY THING THAT MATTERS

"This song light up my life many times within the last month."

Answered prayers

I never fully understand where in the moment I may be, why some things God let happen. I believe completely that every event or encounter, gives us a choice of reactions. And those reactions make us who we are.

Looking back on many of these mayor events and encounters. I see how God was right there threw it all... During the events and encounters I mostly didn't see God leading my way. But looking back I smile and rejoice. Cause I'm a blind, lost and foolish sheep but the Good Shepard watched over me and still does. Even though I don't see or feel him, like I'd like or once did. But I hold on to the moments I did.

My heart was burden and broken and now my prayers are answered. The only unanswered ones I'm just trusting God to answer at the right time. Not mine...

"How He Loves,"

-The Beast

What is the most important? Cause I Don't know!!!!

Eating to stop Hunger pains?

TAKING A SHOWER?

Drinking water to help your thirst?

GETTING SLEEP?

*Or my personal choice Drinking A LARGE GLASS OF Milk!!!

(That would give me strength stop, help hunter pain, helped my thirst and then asap after drinking that get in the shower! ^_^ ) -Beast

The Great Commission

I live in America, the Land of the Free.

This Country was founded on Christian Values and a Law from the inspiration of the Bible.

The trails of our founding fathers went through to make this country. And how God's control over this and all the ways I find his control over so much astounds me.

God gave us a free will to live free.

America has lost its way, or maybe it has long ago, or maybe it never was on the exact right track, but I'd like to think so. :)

As Americans the wealthiest nation in the world, we became comfortable with our easy lives and distracted from what matters with social interactions, social status, Tv series, Drama, Gossip, Sex, Money and living for the moment.. ..

Many of these in my list are idols, hidden to some. And americans are fascinated by this list and consume their lives into it. So much that it may be their life or their God. When someone doesn't have something to fill them are they not willing to be filled with a God who loves them? Maybe but I'd say that they would be more likely than someone has found their God in my list described earlier.

So in knowing the God of the Universe and everything in it. I consider it a challenge to be in a country that doesn't know or want to know "how badly it Needs God." Some people are wise enough to know their is a emptiness and are trying to fill it with anything. And may even think they find it and find brief happiness. But God offers his love and Everlasting Joy through his Son who took all of our sin, death and pain on himself in our place.

We are not perfect and we were damned by our first little sin, But his Grace is enough to cover all of our sin if we just put our trust in the Savior who saves, Jesus. God came to earth and lived as a man with the power of the holy spirt, "the third part of the trinity, God three in one". Shown he was the Son of God, Revealed so much to us and told us it was time for his death multiple times before. And knew of his disciples future failures and still loved them and died for us all, without sin or fault, unlike all of us of many sins and faults. But it did not End with his death! For as he had said on the third day he rose from the Dead and stayed with his disciples for forty days. Then left to heaven telling them not to leave Jerusalem, till they were filled with the holy spirt. Once they were empowered they were on the great Commission to tell the world this good news that Jesus came and died for them.

Now two thousand years later many have heard and forgotten How our Savior loves us and what he has done for us. We've turned to our sinful desires and fallen away and maybe don't even know it. America is the largest english speaking mission field and it will be a challenge, but hasn't that shown God's faith in us, in America?

Just trying to tell myself this as much as you. And I know it is long but that has been on my heart of late. Sorry it is long, hope it made you think a little.. ..

-Now out of these Faith, Hope and Love remain and the greatest of these is Love.

Song of the Month August 2011

You Are More

Tenth Avenue North

&

Healing Begins

Tenth Avenue North

This life we live in is not what we are here for,

There 'IS' a reason of existance and we were created,

There 'IS' a God who loves loves us dearly,

This dear love was so real..

Philippians 2

⁶ Who, being in very nature God,

did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
⁷ rather, he made himself nothing
by taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
⁸ And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
by becoming obedient to death—
even death on a cross!

He did this because "You Are More!"

So let the "Healing Begin."

-Sorry for being a day late

Always by his Grace

Joy

May always my heart rejoice through every

sickness,

toil,

pain,

stress,

discomfort and

all evil that builds up against me.

For Nothing, can separate me from Your Love.

My strong Fortress that will never leave or never Change. Nor close it's gates to me or anyone who believes and asks to be called a Child of God. ^_^

My little reminder.

On the way home from work I noted the new power line post they installed and thought that now I have a reminder every day, I drive by that new post, of the God who keep me safe on that crazy morning. :)

Love and Trust,

The Beast

Gaurdain

I've had a long week and I've been sick but it has been important for me to keep working to try to make money to invest into my future. This morning I woke up coughing about 2ish and couldn't get back to sleep so I turned on the x-box and just enjoyed some time on it. My alarm went off and I kept on the x-box to try to quickly finish what I was working on. I was pushing my time to leave and I rushed out the door like most early mornings lately. I crested the second hill and lost control and over turned to get back on course and broke through a fence then knew I was in trouble and I thought to myself, "Idiot." then I hit the dirt wall and my back end flew back twisting around taking out a power line and ending in a fence. I turned off the truck and threw a small praise heavenward. Called my mother then my boss to tell him I was going to be late. My drivers door wouldn't open so I climbed out the window. To see the road directly behind me to my surprise and I wasn't where I thought I was. but I stayed on the truck cause I knew I took out the power line by looking around me. I wasn't harmed at all thrown around a lot. The truck is totally, totaled and today hasn't gone well. But there are blessings all around. :) Like my own Guardian Angel.

Isaiah 40:28-31

²⁸ Do you not know?

Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
²⁹ He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
³¹ but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

-Yours the Beast

Song of the month July 2011

Your Great Name

Natalie Grant

Just look it up. Hear it. And complain if you don't think this song shouldn't be the song of the month!

-God is Love and he has blessed me with his treasure. ^_^

Freedom

What is the freedom we have in Christ?

It is finding the only true love the only thing that will remain the same for all time. The truest of love that stretches all across the earth and was proven time and time again. Without this love we are lost in our own broken lives, but God's grace that was given with love through His son coming into the world to die for us in our place.

As the wave of death and judgement and damnation rose and rushes for us. He took the condemn's place, our place and laid the sins of us all on Him who never sinned but faced every temptation. And died in our place still showing His unchanging love and grace to all, to the very end. And our price was paid.

But it did not end with His death, for the story did not, then, end. But just as He said, He rose from the grave, the conquerer of death. And told His disciples to go unto the world and tell of His victory, His love and the freedom He offers.

So whenever you hear the name of Jesus remember the victory that comes with that name.

A new heart

For a lot of times in my life I've asked God to take my heart and make it new again. A lot more than I should, I realize.

I let go of what I once held so tightly to. My personal relationship with God. It took me a little bit to realize how far I've gotten. Then I feared it was too late. And I crashed rock bottom, it took a toll on everyone close to me. Then I cried out to God with no reply. For months.

And that was the longest worst time in my life. But I grew so much, I learned the loneliness without God living alive in me. And I felt dead inside.

So many people brought me through that hard time in my life. But I still see God's hand guiding me along. God used that hard fall to grow more than I ever thought I could.

I've been so very busy with life and all that is with it. But when I sent the message saying the battle is won. That is after I heard the still small warm voice that I've missed for so long say. "I love you." I heard God speak to me again. :)

Currently, life has never been better. I still have my difficulties and battles. But God is my center and my solid fortress that I will never ever ever ever ever, leave again.

-The Beast over and out

Faith Hope and Love witch is the greatest

Song of the Month June part two

Tenth Avenue North

You are More

God loves you because you are more. God's love is perfect and when you truly find that love and truly see yourself. That is the greatest thing to find. And I have found it. And I try harder than anything never to lose it. :)

Song of the Month June

The Afters

Light up the Sky. ^_^

Just Lession and close your eyes

Life

Victory! The war is won! Conquered back by the true love of God.

I know I told you saturday I'd post but man, I've been buzy like a train with no brakes. lol. Tired.

But my heart is alive again I can feel the closeness of God. And even his soft whisper tonight telling me just that he loves me. Now I can't go through a worship service without crying out of joy of feeling the closeness of my God whom I've missed. But I read a little bit of psalms last week and it just spoke straight to me telling me of God's victory in my life and I praised him for it. In one year I'm such a different person, I wouldn't recognize myself. God didn't fix my heart he took it and melted it and gave it back to me anew.

My out look on life is changed and I'm ready to live out my life for God. God has control over my life and the quicker I get in gear with that the better. All the many ways he's helped me along. None is greater or more worthy of praise.

THANK YOU GOD! Glory to you forever and ever and ever and ever!

Love

He is no fool to give up what he can't keep to gain what he can't lose.

-Jim Elliot

Life is full of so many things like our hopes and dreams or things that we hold too tight to. Fearing we many lose it. Hey, I'm as guilty as the rest of ya'll. "But what if we gave up it all?" What? We are americans, we live to get things and show them off to people and our hopes and dreams are what we live for right?

Some yes, but that is all they life for then they die and lose everything they've worked for. "But what if we give it all up"- to gain what we can't lose. Life forever with a God who loves us.

1st Coronations 13:13 "Now Faith, Hope and love remain, but the greatest of these is love."

Why is Love the greatest? Love is a weak frail thing that just comes and goes. This is not talking about the frail weak love of 21st century America Romantic movies. Even some of that you get good love stories. But here is the best one you'll ever hear. (Bible)

Through this whole book you'll hear many stories about many fantastic real events on history. But for awhile now I've thought my bible as a love story for this reason. You got God and he makes everything in six days. We can't even understand that. All the detail he put into everything we are still trying to understand it all. Then Satan tempted Eve with disobeying one of God's only rules. And we messed everything God created in a second. Think God was awesome with making everything in six days. Then Eve and Adam messed it up in a second with sin. Don't you think God would be a little up set that they messed all his perfection up? A little but he cared and loved them, and clothed them so they wouldn't be ashamed. But God knew that his plan was in progress. And so he began to write his love story.

Through the old testament God watched over his chosen people that one day his son would come to the earth as a descendent from. Then as the Romans connected the world with roads and God's timing was made perfect. Jesus came out of love for us.

Not that frail or weak love. A true perfect love that can only come from a perfect God. As a perfect God he is just and payment must be made for our fall in our sin. In the old testament they would sacrifice animals for God. So God out of His love for the world Gave his Son to us to die as a criminal. And that is what we did to Jesus, and he died willingly out of love for us. Maybe there is some you'd die for, others maybe not. But would you take the place of a criminal on death row, and take his sentence and die while he walked free? I don't know if I could after knowing what that criminal did to receive that sentence. But that is what Jesus did for us.

But God defeated Hell that Glories day with love on that Good Friday. He stayed for a bit then went to heaven to prepare a place and promisses to return and take all of those who are his back to heaven. And that is the true love story. Find anything better, I'd love to hear it. And this is true.

1st Coronations 13:13 Now faith, hope and love remain and the greatest of these is love.

Faith in Jesus as our Savior, Hope in the day that is coming in and Love the Greatest of these.

I'd gladly give up all to gain what I can not lose, the true love of God. And maybe I can share that love I found with others around me.

He is no fool to give up what he can't keep to gain what he can't lose.

That battle I've had with myself for so long is finally over. :)

I'll blog about it before Saturday night. Promise. ttyl

beast out for the night

Song of the Month

I'm trying to get this in real quick before I get in my truck to drive to Church.

The Song of the Month is Forgiven, by Sanctus Real.

Cause if we are not covered with the Blood of Jesus and Forgiven, Where would we be? And what would become of us?

But we can REJOICE cause I'm forgiven!

This song just is awesome cause some days I just need to hear this song in particular. God is So Awesome.

Have a nice day and remember if you are Forgiven. :)

-Beast out

The Tenth plage of Egypt was the death of the first born and the Israelites took the blood of a lamb to their doorposts so when the Angel of Death would pass through Egypt, the Angel would passover the houses marked by the blood of a lamb, to keep them safe.

Jesus, Died as the lamb for us. He gave himself for us out of love for us. But we still need to bear the blood of the Lamb for when the time comes we can be safe.

A quick thought that wasn't even my own. But I'd like to share it with you.

-The Beast

I Reserve The Right To Arm Bears

I love how every YEAR I get a new Awesome T-shirt. For my birthday anyway. :) Last year's t-shirt was- "Milk I am Your Father."

This year is kinda funny cause I didn't get it at first then, everyone laughed at me and I got it. :) S. Ed moment, cause I said it wrong. But I love making people laugh.

Anyway this year was- "I reserve the right to Arm Bears." :D

Awesome stuff. Life is going how it is meant to. Love, Trust and Shine!

-Beast Out

Always with me

I gotta wait two weeks to see if this door is opened and I get to walk in or if it is closed and I need to find a different door.

My birthday is Saturday. Years are beginning to go by faster and I'm more unsure about things than ever. But my trust is in the Love of my Perfect God. I'll praise him all the more cause I don't know where my life will take me. But he does and He'll always be with me.

Life is keeping me busy and a big door in my life is tomorrow. :) I don't have any fear of what will happen cause I know God's plan is the best and I know now more than ever that he is in control. I trust Him.

And life is going great cause I'm making it great.

Working is a great!

Pray if you get a second for tomorrow.

-Always the Beast

Fire within

My life has been full and busy and I like it. God is the center of my life again and I've been very happy about very little lately and it is kinda funny. And that makes it more funny. My heart was made soft again. And there is a fire within me, that I didn't start. That is warm and comfurting and is alive. Now I gotta go shine that fire.

God Bless You,

Trust, -Beast

A piece of my life

HEY, it has been awhile but I've been keeping busy. I'll call that a good thing. :)

I'm winning the battle for my heart and it is just a great feeling. The Love within softening all of me once again. Things still hurt but I just surrender the pain again and again as it arises within and it slowly becomes easier and easier to deal with.

Through the pain, I see God's control and all he has done for me and how he was in control always. Looking back on all of my life I can see his control of situations that arise and my trust in him grows more and more!

I'm leading a small class of some teenage boys with one of my close friends. I told them this Sunday and it still amazes me to look back and think of his control.

I'll go ahead and share what I did with them with you.

A piece of my life's testimony.

I'm not good with pubic speaking or even speech in general at times. But with God with me I am able to preach his word boldly and that is amazing cause it is through his strength and not my own. Being used by God is the most fulfilling feeling I've felt in my life. God gave me strength in my weakness.

I've tried to preach without God being my center and my strength and it was a failure in many ways. My life without him is empty and even with the distractions I try to put in my way. The emptiness of a loving God I once knew was still there. The Loving God that showed his love to me on that fence all toughs years ago. And I've been on fire for God for most of my life sense then, besides recently.

Recently, a girl took the middle of my life. I more I got to know her the more I believed She was everything that I wanted to one day marry. Also as I got to know her better she had some caution and red flags come up. I though of influence and how she told me she didn't like these areas of her life and I believed her that she would change.

I one day became head over heels in love with her and I didn't need her to change. I loved her for who she was. And I thought she was more in love with me then her, witch was such a wonderful feeling. To love someone and have that love returned.

I prayed for a lot of things in my life and there were two girls I prayed about and they were similar prayers. Basically, "Was she the one?"

The first time it wasn't a direct answer but I had a dream we were marring different people, I saw her in the white wedding dress and I thought I wanted to be with her. I couldn't see the bride I was marring or the groom she was marring. But I wrote that in my Journal and looking back that was shortly after I prayed asking if she was the one. I do believe that was God telling me no. But I lived that part of my life and it has helped shape me into who I am. There is nothing wrong with that girl we are just not meant to be. But I tried to make it work anyways but I was a lot more of a kid then.

The girl I fell head over hells for I prayed this before I had any clue what I thought of her. Anc this time God answered right that second. "I'm in Control." And then I get all happy cause I think God is telling me, I'm in control, I make the plans now go for it. Not, I'm in Control and I'll be with you though everything.

But I thought that she was the one and I would do anything for her that she wanted. Then that was put to the test on Thanks Giving Break. I was going to take a bus down a week before thanks giving and spend a week with her and then ride with her back to Kansas. And she wanted me to stay at her house with her.

I didn't know what to do for the longest time. She wanted me to stay at her house and I finally told her I would stay with her. That could of been trouble. But I didn't stay with her.

The day after I told her I would stay with her someone called me the day after I told her I would stay with her like she wanted. The person said. "I trust the two of you not to do anything, but other people will say things." among other things. But I didn't know if I trusted myself. And that staying with her would not be right. So I changed my mind and told her as soon as I got off work and that was that. I explained all of my reasons and I expressed all of my concerns that was shared with me on the phone. So I was no longer the guy who would do anything for her.

Then I took the long bus trip and she was different, more distant. I became more of a nervous wreck trying to find out what was wrong. Then she told me she felt different about me and that started the lowest point I've ever gotten in my life. And without my family, I wouldn't of made it.

I was thankful to be keeping busy with work and try to distract me from the pain. I was angry with God for letting me get so hurt like that. I hardened my heart sealed it up and placed walls to keep myself from the pain that could return. I lost trust in people, even God. My family cared for me so much but I tried to keep them out of my life and the harm I've caused still hasn't healed completely. And I miss the relationship I had with my Mom, Dad and sister.

But, I've seen how God has control over everything even through all of this. His love has broken all my walls and I'm made new again and every time I feel the pain. I just offer it up to God and he takes it. He just asks me to trust.

This girl became pregnant not too long after she said she wanted a break. But like she told me. "You gotta hold on to the good memories." and that is what I plan on doing for the rest of my life and when it hurt I just surrender it to God. For he is always there. He has never failed. He just asks us to believe, trust him and love others.

*This was a very personal and long post. Life is going great and keeping me busy, not enough for my king. But almost little to much to blog. ;)

-As always the Beast

The Mountain

I'm a unique person I am easy dishearten and easily uplifted. I care too much about some things and not enough about others. I worry too much about things I don't have complete contorl of and don't worry about the things I do have control of.

I know there is a God. I've had my moments of anger toward God, questioned God being in my life and more stuff. I've seen to go up and down this little mountain of mine, just slipping up at times. But I can say that I'm trying to climb, I tell myself daily to just trust and I've seen myself grow over time, and I try to love others. My friends around me and the stranger I may that I may never see again.

Love others and Trust.

-Beast

Song of the Month

It was really hard to pick the song of the month. I'm a big fan of Hillsong's worship CD's. I think I will just say just listen to some of them if you try them out.

Some of my favorites from them would have to be-

Hosana-

Inside out-

Mighty to save-

Awesome God-

But if you want one for the month. David Crowder Band's

-Never Let Go.

This song just proclaims God's hold on our life and how he never lets us go.

He wrote this after 9/11/01 and it just one of those great ones. Hope you enjoy.

-The Beast

Wow it is the first of the month, a friday and April fools!

The World and Me

It is the last day of this month and I still feel myself shaping into the man God wants me to be. God has greatly softened my heart again and that is all I want. I've struggled or have been struggling to much in my life about questions I don't know the answer to.

I just need to TRUST in the only one worth trusting in.

And this is such a small world with so many people.

And so many of us are going through the same thing.

And Love is the greatest. (1st Corinthians 13:13)

Love is the greatest thing I felt in my life.

And to have that love returned is even greater.

God loves us and I hope we can all feel what I felt on the fence many years ago when God showed himself to me and told me to love others.

True I harden my heart a lot over the years. But I aways pray that my heart stays soft. I smile remembering how God has just given me a new one, maybe more times than he should of. But there is no end to His Love.

Just Trust.

-the Beast

Back

Home, SWEET HOME!

35,000 miles and finally where we started. It was all around great trip. Besides the long road days. X)

But home is home. Now I've been in both the Atlantic and the Pacific. Seen alot. I loved it out there with the fresh sea air and the tropical surroundings. Get to visit people that really matter to me. I'll miss them maybe a little more now, but I got great memories.

-Beast over.

Other side of America

I Enjoyed the awesome grand canyon and it was difficult not to yell. "I'm King of the world with my arms spread wide over the edge like the foolish fun person I believe myself to be.

Now, I'm in a far away place I see the other side of my gaint home of America.

The Palm trees seem allien but the warm sun is welcoming. Although we are finally getting the same in my homestate. ;)

I enjoyed dinner @ Fishouse and it was very good but I was very tired of travelling. Alot snow that was interesting for this area so I'm cnvensed that the snow and cold weather followed us out of Kansas. It is very nice in Kansas now, to my reports.

I hope all is well with you as well as me

-the beast over

Mountains

Mountains are amazing!

I got to see some today and my reaction was. I want to climb just all of them! One at a time but just climb them all!
-That was my beastly comment.

All is going great with me, enjoying the last flexable time I'll have in awhile. Enjoy spring break people.

-I'll blog when I can. And remember to Trust and Love. Night people, yours the Beast

The Great Crusade

"You are about to embark on the great crusade..." Declared Churchill as the Allied forces prepared to Land in Normandy. Churchill had many of amusing stories about his life and I am very good with getting off track. lol. :D

Anyway I'm blogging this early on my annual friday cause I'm getting ready for an awesome trip to Sanaa Barbara, California! :] (Grunt Grunt) And the home of Psych, So that will be a goal in this trip to find the office of Psych. A great show but I will not get off track as I easily do lately. Ummmmm.... Where was I going with this? Anyway I'll be disconnected for a while over spring break.

Have fun with your Week

-Always the Beast

To Save A Life

Ok, here is one of the movies that is just great!

About a popular high school sport champ his world turned upside down and he realized there was more to life. And he finds it.

Epic Cheesy Moments that'll stay with you for your life! Winner!

-Beast Recommend

So many times in life we get caught up in the everyday things. Our distractions, our past, our future, the mirror of ourselves, comparing our lives to lives of others, sin or entertainment.

God is jealous of us and if we are caught by these things how can we be giving our all to God? If I say God take every part of me and then live with my life invested in something some of these everyday distractions how can we be open to hear the small warming voice of the holy spirt. It is very easy for me to get caught up in all these things I listed.

Lately I've tried to be seeking God more and it has been going great.

I'm working to get my life in order.

And I trust that when the Hardships come that is just my chance to prove my faith is real.

Faith, Hope and Love

-The Beast

Love

Ok, I've been posting a lot lately.

A lot is going on in my life, some of it difficult to deal with. Some of it is just big changes in my life. And some little stuff, like I got my credit card and checking book yesterday. Monday I applied to join the Union. There is painful stuff and challenges that rise up more and more frequently.

But I will just sing louder praise to my God and I will trust him more and more. God has never not been there with me or proved himself unworthy. Unlike myself who has a very up down history.

I've felt the anger and deep sorrow deep within me before on more times than I'd like to admit. But when I let those things in my heart. It slowly makes me very dead on the inside. Outside just as alive as anyone else. Where can love fit into a heart of sorrow and anger. It can't. So I let go of my sorrow and took up love and I'm in pursuit of my Savior with all the Joy I can contain.

Tonight was an amazing night. I read a Psalm I had on my wall from years ago. Psalm 13. And After that I added to it those years ago on that paper I stuck to the wall.

How many times do I lose my footing

How many times do I fall into my sinful ways

How many times do I feel alone in the dark

As many times as you take me back with Your unfailing love. I will always trust in You, My King Eternally.

*Tonight the Stars Shine :)

-Always the Beast

My WAY

Ok, there was an issue I needed solved. My Hair needed a hair cut. So as the Beast I did it myself. I did an very ok job. But I noted I had a mullet cause I couldn't see the back of it. So I used the buzz razor and had at it. That made a terrifying Fail in my little plan witch I turned to my advantage. I showed my mother and sister and we had a good laugh about my cleaned up back head. So my mother being all sweet fixed it up and now I have a shorter than expected hair cut. Awesome! Joni said Mom should of kept it like it was. But no,

The Way or my way witch is the way. hehe. jk.

-(Grunt) The Beast!

Amish Grace

Here is a powerful movie.

You fight with tears through the most of it. But the story of Love is the greatest is just powerful and moving. My favorite line from that movie might be-

*Forgiveness comes from an open heart and it comes without condition or it does not come at all

But this is my Favorite line for sure-

*Faith, when everything is as it you want it to be, is not true faith. It is only when our lives are falling apart that we have the chance to make our faith real.

(5 star)

The challenge is when your life is falling apart. Will my faith be proved true? I hope cause I can't imagine the moment when it falls apart. A great movie and very well put together.

Black Ops Zombies

Ok the man challenge is how long you will last and what better way to do that through Zombies!

:D-Fun!

Alright today I was able to get to level 21 with all perks and the Mustang and Sally and the RPK90 upgraded.. Monkey Bombs and the bowy knife. What finally killed me was getting a nuke and finishing a round without setting the teleporter to be ready. And I was only used the quick revive once in the round I got surrounded.

-I tried to hold the teleportor as long as I could then teleport to the Camera Room and kill a lot of them with Mustang and Sally. Switch back to the starting room and work them down while in a retreat. I never opened the full circle cause I didn't want to have them coming through everywhere as and it would always be "Alamo"plan. Never made it there cause I got them coming in on all sides and died.

I have several strategies I'd like to try with teams of people. Like one would be holding up in the Alley with everyone with upgraded AK47u's so they could buy upgraded ammo when needed. Or in the room with two stair Cases and the MP32 and upgrade that and buy upgraded ammo.

With your secondary as open to your discretion. Personally I love the upgraded pistols. :) that would I believe be help full as a support person that can help the window guard if needed or help the main front. I always try to leave a crawler. And I hope to try these out and if you got any ideas I'd love to try them out.

Axis and Allies

Last Sunday dad got a board game for us to get into and it would be- Axis and Allies -. It is a complicated, world conquest board game. The Rule book is 26 pages and I read it up and we had at it. We are both strategic and the first game we played 3 rounds just to become familiar with the playing of it.

This time around I'm playing as the Axis and my father gets to play as the Allies. Unlike the game before where I had the Allies. In both games I focus on Naval and Air Control of the game board. My dad is a very safe player with every horrible attack I could make against him, he already has covered. I am one to very much be aware of my openings but aggressive in the necessary amount.

Currently I hold control of the Mediterranean and he controls above Britain and the Pacific is in a strong stand off with our two fleets at a stand off. The German Eastern Front is at a stand still with Russia. Africa is going well for Germany. Japan in Asia is expanding. But it will mostly come down to the stand off in Germany's Eastern front and Japan and America's Stand off in the Pacific.

-All in all it is a thumbs up for the Beast

Just life as it comes

22's in the rain have a beautiful echo that fills your ears. It kinda sounds like a sniper in video games but whatever. I've not gone out shooting in a while but it always helps relax me.

*Today and yesterday were the two biggest paper fill out days in my life. "Maybe put together."

But life is going great. I'm flying but getting shot at by flack guns bellow. lol. A stupid note I made about while talking earlier.

I'm exited about a chance to go on a road trip. Getting away from life for a bit would always be a nice change.

I'm clueless what to do in some things.

But God knows and just wants us to trust.

In the cloudy sky or clear. Witch it is cloudy and I want the sun to come in both senses.

Pray in all things

-the Beast

The Challenge!

Ok, here is a fun challenge I've been working on for the last month. Take the most well mannered person you know and try to get them to say something they normally wouldn't say, or even harder what you've never heard them say.

It is the most fun when they have no idea you are doing this cause they may get frustrated with you for playing this little game.

Ok, My mother was my saint who I was trying to get to say things. Well last week she caught wind of my efforts. But I would brake out laughing cause how hard I'd try sometimes. YOU Must get word perfect if you are to attempt. And you can't ask them to say that "Word line". You can make any thing funny.

I've done my best and had a blast every time I remember to try it. Give it a shot.

-The Beast

During worship this morning, I realized something simple with big impact on me.

Last year I was seeking so hard for God's "Plan" or what he wanted with me. I felt I had something to do for God in my life and I wanted to know what was up. Time and Time again he told me to wait. I smile at how many times I didn't understand why. Now looking back at last year, thinking about what has happened between now and then. I think also how much I've honestly grown up.

-"Although" I'm not sure how far I've gotten, only how far I've come.

I'm honestly trying to be more outgoing, get out of my comfort zone and Live my life Daily full out for God. I'm seeking what God wants for me, but I don't think he is going to hand down the playbook.

1. I just need to live daily for him and do the little acts that change the world.

2. Keep self open to help wherever I maybe asked to

3. Seek to know God better and trust him more and more

4. Joyfully Love others as I continue being 3rd

Quick little list for myself

-Always The Beast

Late entry, But no sleep lately

Well I am able to keep with the commitment I made this week and I'm liking that. :)

I lack sleep as I type into this keyboard. Although I broke my retinue not posting last night I was busy with a small army of boys. It was indeed fun.

I work with a good friend of mine that is strives daily to be a servant and we often are there for each other as brothers in Christ. He is fun guy with great stories about his life. I'm glad I get to work with him on stuff.

I'm facing a challenge that I didn't know that I'd face. I'm not sure how to deal with it so I'm stepping back and trying to wait for the right time to address it. I'm also trying to avoid it. I might just be that tired running on very little sleep the past few days.

I don't know how this will turn out. But I'll pray, hope and trust.

I'm so thankful to God for all of my family in Christ.

-Yours The Beast

The Moment

I was telling myself yesterday that there wasn't a moment when you choose to live daily for God, that it was making the choices in the daily retinue to life for God. But I proved myself wrong cause in that moment I started to make the choices to live for God. So when I was trying to close my eyes that night I realized the moment thinking there was no moment, was the moment where I switched gears and stopped just doing enough to get by on the Christian standard. That I would seek with all my heart like I once did. In that moment as I closed my eyes Joy stirred within and I couldn't sleep for another hour but it wasn't happiness the condition. It was the Joy form only God that I haven't felt in a long time. I woke with the same Joy within me and the same plan as living as a Living Sacrifice to my Savior, the Healer, the Conquerer and my God!

-Yours the Beast

My Song of the Month

True Love

by Phil Wickham

on the Cannon Album

"Come close listen yo the story

about a love more faithful than the morning

The father gave his only son just to save us

The earth was Shaking in the Dark

All creation felt the fathers broken heart

tears were filling heavens eyes

the day that True love died, the day that true loved died

When blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn't move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

the day that true love died, the day true love died

Search your heart you know you can't deny it

Come on, lose your life so you can find it

The Father Gave his only son just to save us

The earth was Shaking in the Dark

All creation felt the fathers broken heart

tears were filling heavens eyes

the day that True love died, the day that true loved died

When blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn't move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

the day that true love died, the day true love died

Now, Jesus is alive

Jesus is alive X4

Oh, he is alive

He rose again

When Blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn't move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

The day that true love died, the day true love died

Come close and listen to the story"

Now that always shakes my heart in such a moving and powerful way.

-Shine on, The Beast

The strength that isn't our own

We all have our bad days. Our hard times that we try to avoid. We distract ourselves in this world were distractions are everywhere. We turn away instead of seeking the chance to be a light in someones hard day. We say to ourselves, that isn't that important. If it is meant to be it will come to be. My strength isn't enough.

To many times we don't bother to care for the world around us. Or more often even the end of our street. We know ourselves as we know our failures and they echo through our minds if we let them. How can I show God to others when my strength isn't enough.

But there is a love that goes beyond our own strength. When in God's Love story of here on Earth, God sent his son. God to live as a man among men. And as a man he he lived without fault or failure. Took our sin, on the cross to be the way our ransom, our Savior.

Jesus died for us, and it did not end with his death for three days later, early on that first easter morning, the Tomb was empty. Jesus came back to life as he said he would. It didn't end with his death. He stayed for a short time with his disciples then went to heaven promising help would soon be with them. The Third Member of the Trinity the Holy Spirt.

The Holy Spirt still works through us to this day. Giving us nudges, speaking to us and performing unbelievable acts of God. The Holy Spirt lives in whoever lives for Christ Jesus. We can become hard and not hear the soft whispers or tugging at our hearts. The Holy Spirt acts very differently in us all. But in our weakness, the Holy Spirt can be our help and make us strong.

Personally there are so many things I struggle with in life. But I know if God has told me to do something, anything. That God will give me the strength to complete the task according to his will. It may be the smallest of things but God gives the bigger task to the ones who can complete the small ones. I miss my chances often enough and have often let my heart become hard. But I try to still myself more and let the spirt soften my heart once again. It is so clear to me when the Holy Spirt lives active within.

I'm about to begin another big chapter in my life as my 19th Birthday closes in. I know my weaknesses. But I can rejoice at the things God has done in my life and where I would be without him. And if that thought doesn't make me wanna rejoice I don't know if anything will.

God is stronger than anything. If God uses us and you realize the strength that isn't my own. That is just a powerful feeling and every time that happens, I trust God all the more and rejoice that God is using my imperfect self for something bigger than me. The strength God gives that isn't my own.

-Always The Beast

Clouds

So again in sleepless night,

The stars show no bright.

The white snow covering,

Clouds remain blocking.

I look as they aren't here,

My soul takes all it can bare.

Then with my child's heart,

I look deep into God's art.

I see not a starless sky,

but a test of faith coming by.

Then as I have for many years,

I turn heavenward even with my ears.

A comfort comes up from within,

Then I look up once again.

And I feel the God I love so near,

Although there is still clouds here.

-The Beast

Faith, Hope & Love

Do your best and forget the rest!

Do your best and forget the rest.

That is a line that I've heard a lot lately. But what if you really gave it all?

Wouldn't that just be such a great feeling to know that you gave all you could?

Why Wonder?

Just saying.

-A quick note from The Beast

Just Randomness in a sleepless night

I always have difficulty logging into my Blog! Lol.

-S. Ed ;)

Here is a quick note anyway.

In hard times or not or when the stars shine or there is cloud overcast. The stars are still out there. I think it is a lot like God, He is always there. You just gotta look for him sometimes. But when you find him in like the clear of the night his Glory is shown.

-Yours always the Beast

* * *

God has been so Good to me. Giving me so many blessings that I can't count. He tests me in my weaknesses, and teaches me to trust in his strength. I gotta long ways to go. But my toes and feet are pointed the right way.

I have a hard time sleeping some nights and I guess this is just one of these nights.

In life I try to remember it is the little things that effect us a lot. We all have influence in others. I hope I can just brighten someones day. I'd call that a win in my books any day. :)

\Life is just great and going great, I miss sleep right now and that is also kinda important. So I'll finish with these three notes. Protect your heart, Help your Friends protect theirs and love others the way Christ loves us.

-The Beast

Howdie. :)

Life is just rolling on. I'm praying as I work out the big choices in my life. I hope God closes the door that need to be closed and any that I feel are open I'm going through!

I've changed some what. I'm not who I once was and I'm not sure every way was in the best way for me. But I've learned life gives you scares and they make you who you are. Either the little scars on your hands from barb wire or the scares you can't see.

We also gotta know that we are, where we are and God can use us anywhere. Be open to that and my encouragement for the Week is-

In my Weakness, God can use me just to show how Strong he is. Believe and Trust.

-Yours always the Beast

Just about me

I'm the guy who'll get r done and get dirty to do it.

I dance though I shouldn't because of how bad I dance. lol.

I sing although I know I'm not the best.

I am who I am and that isn't going to change. although I may try to improve my faults.

I think I'm a good guy and just trying to make his way through this crazy life and I'm gonna have fun 2! :D

God is first in my life, others are second and I am third.

-Beast

Puzzle

I tried to log in last month and I forgot my password. :/

But I thought I would give it another try tonight. And I got in after maybe 30 different tries and two Email addresses. lol.

Everything is well with me. Good Health and working on making choices for my life. Parts of me feel spritually dead and I don't like it. I know there is a God who loves me and he has my life and trust. He helps me pick myself up when I fall. I aways felt like a puzzle peice that never fit right in most places. Often thinking I found my place and turns out not. I am exactly who I am for a very real reason. I am who I am and that will never be changed to fix into some puzzle. That doesn't mean I stay alone on the work table and let the other puzzles come to me. I try to explore all the boxes I can find to maybe find the right place. And maybe while I'm doing that I can bring some light to brighten someones day.

God gave me a soft heart to love and serve others, nothing is more rewarding to me than doing that.

Now that I gave you an interesting picture of me as a puzzle piece. lol. Could you give me a quick prayer as I do? That God would give me stronger willingness to reach out, love and serve others?

Typing this "rambling of my fingers" helped brighten my day. I hope it helped yours too if you took time to read this.

-Always yours, and seeking, The Beast